Emergency funds to pay for rent & bills

Hello friends!

It's with a grieving heart that I write this introduction.

I have been dealing with a very difficult situation, and even though you might always see me "happy" and "smiling", the truth is that I am in a constant state of anxiety and worry.

Last year my grandmother was diagnosed with colon cancer, she had surgery to remove part of it. I then received the worst news I could possibly imagine: the cancer is aggressive, rapidly spreading and, at the time, stage four.

Recently I made a trip back home to Brazil because I new that the conditions of her illness had gotten worse and the cancer had spread to other organs.

During this trip, with less than a day after my arrival, I rushed her to the hospital as she was writhing in pain.

I learned then, that she had a bladder infection, was extremely malnurished and dehydrated. After a week in the hospital I was able to take her home.

She had been getting chemotherapy and recently has done more treatments plus radiation (only a day after leaving the hospital).

If you're familiar with the side effects of these treatments then you know that it can do great harm.

I had to return home at some point because all my obligations were waiting for me.

I'm self employed and taking any time off is never an option for me. I work very hard and have been fighting to create a life that I can be proud of.

I have been on a mission to pay off the debt generated from my trip and weeks without working, and at the same time still having to maintain all bills and rent.

I've been in contact with my grandmother and all those that could provide some assitance to her in Brazil. In no way is it easy to be far away from her.

For the last two weeks it's been harder and harder to contact her, her illness has advanced exponentially and she is extremely weak due to the fact that she can barely eat or drink water.

I'm making arrangements to catch a plane to be with her and hopefully I make it in time before she passes away.

My grandmother means the world to me, she has raised me to be a strong, independent woman and I can't imagine missing her last moments.

To make this nightmare even worse, my mother is mentally disabled. She lives in a specialized center because she needs round the clock care.

I work hard, always thinking of her and how, without my grandmother around, I will need to be 100% responsible for all her needs.

I've been doing my best to be prepared for this moment, but that's not how life works.

I'm in debt because of my last trip and haven't had much time to recover from it, owing my credit cards thousands of dollars.

I need to leave immediately!!!

As you can already imagine, I have no return date and am not able to make any plans to do so which affects my work (quite possibly I will lose my clients).

It's not easy to ask for help, and in these circumstances, I don't know how I'll be able to afford my rent and bills.

This is the only resource I can think of currently.

I put an estimated amount that I believe will help me to stay afloat. I have not even been able to think about the expenses I will have in Brazil and right now, am just trying not to panic.

There is strength in numbers and I hope to receive loving support from my community.

ANYTHING helps!

Please feel free to share my page on your social media as well.

It's very difficult to share my story because only the ones who are very close to me know what I've been going through. I was always tought to fight my own battles.

I want to express infinite gratitude for all that can assist me via donations, sharing the page, words of support and love.

For anyone that would like to help me directly:

Venmo id @Lakshmi-Amorluz

Thank you