Eternally grateful for your help

Hi, I am Giulia I’m 31 and I’m from Italy

I am a mom of 2 beautiful kids

Jordan who is 3 and Gregory who is 5. I am a wife , I am a foreigner in a country that I am learning to call home. Life is beautiful.

Unfortunately, I have been diagnosed with chronic lymphocytic leukemia.

I don’t think I will be ever able to really explain how hard this journey has been for me, how challenging , heartbreaking and consuming these years of sickness have been, how sad I have been, how hopeless I now feel. I don’t even know how to tell you how difficult writing this and posting this it is for me, I wish , I truly wish I could avoid it, I could find a way to provide for my need by myself but after so many years I am at a point where I cannot sustain living , working , paying medical bills , provide for my children without help. Help is a funny word for me,the hardest to ask, what most used to make me feel ashamed and maybe still I am a bit, I feel like I am at fault for being sick , that I should hide it, hide everything and make it like nothing bad is happening , that I am not struggling daily and that every smile is fake because is so full of heavy thoughts especially for my children and so here I am, putting my pride away and ask for help to you , to strangers , to people I have never met just because I cannot afford to lose hope, stop fighting , trying to come out of this alive and well.

I need financial help to pay for medical expenses for the next three months as well as trying to pay back some of my many debts accumulated over the years . I have tried for so long to stay alive and I am desperately trying to continue doing so, and I hope that this could help me breathe a little bit more.