Help Debra fight Stg 4 Metastatic BC

Back for round 2 ... Only this time I am fighting a much harder battle..  It all began on Nov. 15, 2011, when I first heard the words " You have Breast Cancer", with my amazing sister, family, and friends by my side I fought and WON the battle, by May 2012, I was Cancer free !!  In August  2014 I was forced to go to the emergency room due to shortness of breath and a sharp pain just inside my left sholderblade, expecting to hear that I had pulled a muscle or something of the sort. After many tests the Dr informed me that I had a spot on my ribs that was very concerning and he wanted me to see my oncologist ASAP. When I heard those words  along with my oldest daughter, my heart just sank to look at my daughter and see the fear in her eyes that same fear that I was feeling and tell her it will be ok, its probably nothing serious. Well after many test I come to find out that yes it was serious, not only was the cancer back but that it had spread into my rib cage, my left sholder, and my right hip. Being the optimistic that I am, I tried to look at the bright side of things I will be able to go on and work through this just as I had done before. Wrong again, due to the pain in my hip I was not able to walk much less try and work. Again my heart sank, you see I am a mother of 9, my husband is disabled due to a house fire in 2006, and I am the sole breadwinner, and caretaker. How do I tell my family now that everything will be ok when I am not so sure this time that it will. I am not one to ask for help and am doing this only as a last resort, believe me I am to the point of being desparate and do not want my husband and children to worry any more that they already are worrying about me much less will we have power next month, gas to get to appt's, or food in the fridge. I am not asking for miracles but if you are able to help in any way it would be greatly appreciated. Prayers are welcomed, God Bless You All !!