Botched Trans FTM Top Surgery

TW FOR NUDITY/MEDICAL ABUSE/OPEN WOUNDS/BODILY FLUIDS/MENTIONS OF SELF-HARM/ BODY DYSPHORIA/POTENTIALLY TRANSPHOBIA?

I am a 23 year old transgender man and I had undergone a gender affirming surgery (double incision mastectomy with free nipple graft) to relieve my gender dysphoria I've been dealing with for most of my life in early February of 2024 by a surgeon I confidently trusted with my body and mental health to properly take care of me. She has failed in and increased the risks of infections and harm by improperly removing extra tissue, fat and skin that was left over. As she left extra skin, she scrunched up the skin up to the incisions and created skin folds and creases that are not gender affirming NOR aesthetically pleasing or similar to a cis man's chest. I've been incredibly distressed by the appearance of my incisions debating whether or not they were normal, healthy or the skin folds would go away- I have reached out to multiple friends who have had top surgery, and asked around in transgender communities about my incisions and how my surgeon done my surgery and they've all concluded that how she treated my surgery and my gender dysphoria is unacceptable and medical malpractice. My surgeon denied there was a post-operative infection three times, despite other doctors who looked and observed my open wound- said it was infected.

From the photos alone, it was and is infected. I showed her photos of my wound, told her it smelled a strong unpleasant smell, redness, it was bleeding, there was pus, and leakage...All signs of infection, but she denied and denied. I knew she was wrong and negligent, and didn't listen to her when she said it was "okay" and wasn't infected. I went to the ER nearby where I live and got prescribed anti-biotics to help with the infection...I feel like if I listened to my surgeon, I might be dead, or gotten really sick from her treatment over me. I am no longer seeing her now, and am currently looking for a different surgeon to help me fix the mess she made.

As I am currently unemployed (Currently finding a job) I don't have that much money to spare to hire and pay a lawyer to help me try to win the case of creating a lawsuit against the surgeon that ruined my chest. I am creating and sharing this to see if anyone can help me file a complaint AND sue this surgeon for medical malpractice and unacceptable conforming care. Any left over funds will be used to treat the scarring with creams, scar ointments to flatten and reduce the scars, and any left over medical bills I may have that insurance won't cover.

Besides from the surgeon botching my surgery, before the surgery happened I was consistently misgendered (They kept using she/her pronouns when my gender marker is MALE.) and was called by my deadname (Legal cisgender female name) multiple times throughout my time by various of nurses and doctors. I had trusted my surgeon who has had history of plastic surgery and SUPPOSEDLY prior top surgeries she has performed and now my gender dysphoria and mental health has fallen down significantly because my surgeon was/is incompetent, seemingly in-experienced and caused a permanent scar across my chest, and this might result in two scars across my chest as I am hoping to seek a revision in three to six months from a whole different surgeon to fix the mess she made.

Compared to my incisions, these two photos are how they're supposed to look like. No extra skin, fat or tissue. No skin folds/creases.

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There has been countless of times before my top surgery where I had urges to self-mutilate and self-harm around my chest area caused by the gender dysphoria because it was unbearable to handle and cope with. I have been longing and yearning for top surgery to get the type of chest I've always wanted. I lost my time, insurance money and skin tissue that I can't reverse or undo. I feel defeated and devastated, and I deserve justice and correct care for my trans-related issues that thousands of other trans people go through. No one should have been treated like I have.

I was encouraged to make a GoFundMe by multiple people and I didn't know what would be a good starting point so I just set it to five thousand. If anyone can't donate, please share this so it can be spread around. Thank you.

For new/older updates my Reddit is here. There are some details on there that I didn't share on here.