Treatment Help

I have referred myself to inpatient treatment at The Chris Kyle Patriots Hospital.  While I am in treatment I loose all income.  I am asking for help to ensure that my family is ok while I am in treatment. I have been medically retired since 2010. Since being out in the civilian sector I have lived in Alaska with my family. I suffer from anxiety, depression, and PTSD. What makes it so hard is that each condition feeds off of the other. I am constantly on guard, have huge trust issues. I trigger very easily. It has taken so much for me to reach out for help. I have let things get so bad that I have attempted suicide on two different occasions. I can’t find where I fit in in life. I have not left Alaska in many years which also plays a roll in my situation. I have no friends or family here. I’m isolated and alone. I work full time but my current mental state wreaks havoc on my job and my marriage not to mention on my life as a whole. I am married with 3 children. I love my family to death, but I don’t love myself at all. So if I can’t see the good in me how can I expect anyone else to. I have reached a point that I know that I have to help myself before I lose everything.