My Final Gender Transition
When I was born, I was forced to change my gender from male to female as a result of a botched circumcision so for the first 15 years of my life, i was raised as a girl. I always felt like a boy and I was attracted to females. In my teen years, i was given estragen and was told that I was just "developing slow" but the doctors had told my parents to raise me as a female and that I would never know the truth behind my gender. Throughout my childhood years, I was abused at home, physically and mentally. I remember being tied to my bed by my ankle and locked in my bedroom with a bucket to use the bathroom. I was often beat with a shoe and a hockey stick. When i was 11 years old, i was raped by 2 of my cousins and it was never reported because I was afraid of being beaten at home as it was already a common thing for me. I feared for my life. I found out the truth when i was around 15 years old. My cousin and I had a fallout and she was so mad at me that she said "you know your a boy right? Your not a girl". Thats when my life changed. When I discovered the truth about my gender, i was angry and confused because I was lied to my entire life and I didnt know who trust anymore. In 2005 I underwent the major reconstructive surgery for my bottom area and it was the most painful experience of my life but I could not move forward with my life not knowing what it would be like if I was given my gender back. Today, I'm reaching out for financial support to cover the costs of the final transitional corrective surgery which is remove the breasts. My tribal reservation will not assist me and Health Canada can only pay so much. I have taken both the good and bad experiences in my life and used it to help others who have been faced with the same or similar challenges. Music was the tool that helped me survive. I know for a fact that I would not be alive today if it wasn't for music. Thank you all so much in advance.