Bond and Rent

My older brother commited suicide on Friday. 
I wish I could make that more beautiful and easy to swallow, but right now I can only function and speak in facts. He was almost 30. He was my best friend. He is gone. He shouldn't be.

I feel tacky doing this, but I'm struggling. I can barely shower and do small tasks, and my job as a stripper means I need to be able to function in order to make money. The sex industry does not come with bereavment leave, unfortunately.

My family is currently dealing with all the funeral and burial expenses, and their own grief so I can't reach out to them.

I move into my new sharehouse on April 1st, and I need to get together $2400 to pay my bond and my rent. Intially I had planned to hustle and work hard the next two weeks. That doesn't feel like an option right now.

If you would like to donate some money towards this, that's great. I really appreciate it. I am also in a position where I can eventually pay people back for their generosity and help in this time. 

I would like to grieve for my best friend.