Ran away from abuse. Need help.

For Updates since making this gfm, look at the updates section to see all that I've been through.

No, I do not have 16k. 50k is an arbitrary number. That's what I've raised throughout 2 years of being homeless. That money has fed me, housed me, clothed me, and gave me my medications when I couldn't afford them. It all helped me survive in my car.

Most recent update:

EMERGENCY!!!

PLEASE HELP ME IF YOU'RE ABLE TO EVEN A DOLLAR HELPS

I've been wrongfully forced out of the abusive transitionary home called Sakina House in Hamtramck, MI under Muslim Family Services and ICNA RELIEF. They are extremely abusive, threatening, and cruel. I have tons of emails, audios, videos, etc documenting their abuses towards me and the other women in that house. It's genuinely terrifying that they claim being Muslim while actively doing everything against the Quran.

They are even threatening a homeless woman there who just need someone to pay to renew her greencard, and they're threatening to kick her out if she doesn't get that done. So that's 4 homeless women at minimum abused and threatened by this organization that made us believe we were getting help and safety which was a lie.

She's literally the sweetest, kindest nurse, and if they do kick her out and I'm able to raise money to stay past Tuesday in this motel room, I'll ask her to stay with me because that's how much I care about these women in comparison to this "Muslim nonprofit". She would literally be on the streets in below freezing temperatures in Michigan. That's the depth of their cruelty. It's unfathomable.

She told me that as I was crying trying to get my belongings out of that house. In their document kicking me out, it states that I have an entire week to get my belongings out. But when I showed up to get the rest of it yesterday, they changed the code to get into building and CHANGED THE LOCK TO MY ROOM DOOR ULTIMATELY TAKING HOSTAGE OF MY OWN NECESSARY BELONGINGS. It's absolutely cruel and insane. I was not informed of any of this, and as far as I'm told, it has never been done before.

I just wanted to get my belongings and never deal with speaking to or with these demons at this organization ever again, but their cruelty and abuses won't even allow me that sort of peace.

I have literally no money left. THANK YOU IMMENSELY TO ISABELLE WHO HAS BEEN THE MOST KIND D0NAR ON HERE AND THE ONLY REASON I WAS ABLE TO GET THIS MOTEL ROOM ON THE 27TH WHEN I GOT KICKED OUT. All day, I called every where I could to get help, but because they purposely kicked me out the night before Thanksgiving, all the already strained community resources and nonprofits have not been available to help me at all. I looked at my P4y.p41 at 1 am and saw that Isabelle donated to me $200 and I burst into tears because that's exactly what I needed I used all I had to get this motel room until Wednesday morning.

I don't even have money for food, water, hygiene products, gas, phone and internet bills, let alone another week in this motel room. I need to raise at minimum 375 for another week in this room and then if I can pay for that, whatever is left will go to those other life essentials. PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU ALL IF YOU'RE ABLE TO HELP OR KNOW SOMEONE THAT CAN HELP ME, PLS EVEN A DOLLAR HELPS SO MUCH

Other (f4ster) ways to d0nat3 are on my t1kt0k bio: theworldindigenousrevolt

P4y.p41 is thatcopticweirdo

Hello you beautiful, kind souls!

As you all know, I'm currently in a transitionary home with other homeless women from the Detroit area. Since I am so blessed to have you all keeping alive as I go through being homeless, I'm also going to be providing as much as I can with your help to help these women too with their essentials if I'm able to. I've provided receipts on cleaning products, toilet paper, paper towels, etc that we desperately needed. I also had to buy (79.95 just to ship it to me and then once i get it, it's 55 a month for 100 mgbs. Terrible but I called every company that services this area and only Earthlink was available) internet at least for me, but if you want provide it for the rest of the transitionary home, I can get that done with your help. I also bought 8 months of a PO box in so I can even recieve the modem and if you guys want to send us anything for donation. I also gave one of the women 100 to be able to get gear for a remote job she just got, and I'll hopefully be able to share my internet with her. I also did some of my laundry yesterday which was around 30 bucks which is wild pricing but that's better than others. We don't have a washer and dryer, so we have no choice but to go to the laundromat. Also I have to pay for gas for this car and so many more expenses as I look for a job and study data analysis to get a better job in future. I also have a lot of dept around 15,000 which is over 10,000 in student loans that keep trying to get me to pay and 5,000 in credit card debt from when I was becoming homeless that debt collectors keep threatening with. I keep getting letters about them bringing me to court lmao like bro I'm homeless. What are you gonna take? My soul??? Anyway, hopefully I'll be able to get out of debt once I get a job and maybe raise some money too. It's rough out here, but I wouldn't be alive without you all being so beautifully kind, generous, and so inspiring.

I don't know how to thank you enough ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️✊✊✊✊✊

Before that update:

I'm currently being wrongfully evicted, and I do not feel safe here. I need to raised 3270 to fix my car and around 3,000 to be able to use the car as housing until I can get a job and show proof of income to be abIe to rent (most places need to you to make 3-4x the rent. I didn't even make that at my last job). I am applying for job. I just had an interview.

To fix car goal: 3270/3270

To survive the winter in my car: 0/3000

Other expenses:

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Hello,

Update: I linked up with two other homeless people throughout this journey after running away from their abusive parents too. We need all the help we can get to survive. We keep getting abused by airbnb and airbnb hosts. We are constantly terrified that we'll end up dead because of literally smallest thing going wrong. Please share and try to help us. We also know someone who is living in their car right now, and we're going to try to find a place to rent together that will let us. But we need to raise money. My car's check engine light is on, expired license plate, no car insurance, and need to pay for all of those and pay for a new license because mine is still the TN one.

I am genuinely terrified because I will be dead on the street if my car breaks.

My name is Marteen Ebrahim. I am a nonbinary, queer Coptic Egyptian, and I recently ran away from my abusive parents who are in TN in February. I was staying with a BF in Nashville until he decided not take me with him to NH for his new job and ditched me in Nashville without even discussing it.

I ended up losing my job randomly, and my partner didn't care and still ditched me in Nashville even though their family is wealthy and paid half his rent. He claims he's a leftist, but he's really a neoliberal coward. 

I ended up living in my car in the Vanderbilt hospital garage because you didn't have to pay to get in. At some point, I ended up befriend someone in Kentucky and they were very worried for my situation because I became extremely suicidal. They offered me to stay with them and their parents with their partner, and then two weeks later, their partner and his friend randomly wake me up at 6 am and had their holsters equipped with gun on their hips. I was so scared and out of it and so heartbroken as I collected my stuff into my car quietly, and part of me wishes I could have tried to fight them or something so that I wouldn't have to experience so much more pain. 

At some point right before they kicked me out, I was having a panic attack and crying as I texted my second partner (I'm polyamourous) begging them to let me live with them and their brother in their two bedroom apartment because I was extremely suicidal because the strangers from Kentucky who took me in were acting super weird like they didn't like me or something, and they wouldn't let me and broke up with me because I was a burden. They ended up crawling back to me apologizing at some point, but their image in my mind is too ruined and the wound is too fresh to be able to love them the same way. 

I ended up deciding to travel back to Nashville and admit myself at Vanderbilt Psych for the 9th time in the past 5 years, and they really couldn't help me with homelessness, but I at least had some rest and food for a week. I ended up living in my car in the Vanderbilt garage afterwards again. I was homeless living in my car in Nashville until I got a job in the UP in Michigan at Huron Mountain Club as a dishwasher. So I went on my tiktok page and begged my measly 6,000 followers to help me raise money to get to that job, and I was lucky enough that they helped me. Then, after a few weeks with Huron Mountain Club, they racially hate crimed me and fired me calling me "uncivilized and frightening". 

After that, I ended up being aimless and didn't know what to do. I ended up being able to survive with my last check from them and because stranger on the internet helped me. I ended up researching towns in Michigan based off of racial demographics because at HMC, I was probably the only of two BlPOC in like a 60 mile radius in the middle of literally nowhere. We had to drive an hour to get to Marquette to be able to get anything really. I found Canton seems nice, so I was sleeping in my car there for a while, and then I ended up Madison Heights because of a Japanese Buffet that I went to when I was extremely hungry one day. 

I stayed there for a while and kept trying to raise money to survive and show my experiences and pain and loneliness. I would text people on dating apps and Lex because I was so lonely and it kept my mind from wanting death every two seconds. I ended up getting so desperate that I posted on this queer app called Lex that I would literally cook, clean, and do chores if someone could house me until I can get a job. And out of pure luck, this random person was looking for that, and that's where I am now. 

They turned to be very awful, mean, insensitive, and lowkey racist. They've triggered my PTSD so often that I end up in a 3 day depression every time after the severe panic attacks and crying spells for hours. They keep telling me that they need me out of here by the end of the month even though I still don't have a job, and they said they're not going to kick me out on the streets, that they want me to move from one bed to another. But then they keep reminding me I need to be out of here by the end of the month, and I'm honestly so terrified and so beyond broken and extremely alone and in so much pain all the time. I know that if I end up homeless living in my car again, I will immediately die. I won't care at that point anymore.

I'm already extremely exhausted. I'm currently working on multiple projects right now. One is a Cannabis Education channel on YouTube called Cannabiology to help people understand the plant, it's uses, how to use it in a safe and healthy way, understanding your body and the dosages, explaining research on cannabis and what it means for us etc. Another is a channel called Coptic Amazigh Studies where I'll work on helping my people decolonize their ideologies, educated them about evil uses of rhetoric, how trauma and generational trauma affects us, understanding our roots as a people and what makes us the beautiful, interesting people we are, critiquing the sermons rhetoric from the Coptic Orthodox Christian church which I grew up in (basically an ancient Christian Egyptian cult. I have so much religious trauma), and so much more. 

My last and most important project is for the amazing, resilient Palestinians who are currently sending snapchats of their demise on the snapchat map. I'm going to screenrecord as many as I can, translate them and post them everywhere because their lives and stories matter. They are basically my people. We share a border and have a very similar form of the Arabic language and very similar humor especially when we're going through extremely dark times. I've already posted on where I edited it on my phone, and it's not bad honestly. 

I also have careers goals to become a Neuroscientist focusing on Cellular and Molecular Neuroscience researching psychoactive and psychedelic substances to help neurodivergent people and hopefully neurotypical people after that.

 I'm wanting to at some point build a nonprofit. It's called NERD: Neurodivergent Education, Research, and Development. Basically it's to fight for Neurodivergent people in all fields to be able to get the support they need in school, college, work place, and it would give us autonomy over our research and careers. And it will be doing research by neurodivergent people for neurodivergent people about neurodivergency and literally anything we want to research. The way Academia is, is literally killing us and abusing us and no one fights for us. All these nonprofits just want to profit off of us and give us nothing in return. I want ro fix the academic and research systems to actually learn and research at our own pace. The other part of this is that we will make anyone a scientist or artist if they wanted to be without a degree. We'll teach them and develop their skills without profiting off of them only. It will be set up that anyone who joins the nonprofit will get pension plans where any money left over after paying everyone and everything, it will go into funds for each person who has ever recieved help from us for a certain period of time that they can use for housing, eduaction, equipment for their career, etc. And then I want to build a sustainable farm within it that will have a research lab on the campus and you don't need a degree to learn all different types of research. This farm will provide free food for low to middle income people and families, and I hope I'll get to be able to grow and research cannabis there too. And the cannabis would be free for Veterans, the sick, and the elderly. 

I've honestly run out of options at this point and extremely desperate, alone, and broken. I hope you guys can help me. 

Thank you,

Marteen Ebrahim 

This is my tiktok page. It has my journey through all of this and the activism I'm working on for Palestinians.

https://www.tiktok.com/@iampharaoha?_t=8gedpjcOkXr&_r=1 

Hello everyone,

 

My name is Marteen Ebrahim, but I go by Pharaoha online. I'm asking for you to help me raise money to help me leave my parents' house. I grew up being abused and neglected by my parents, and the more I learn about myself the more I learn that they wouldn't want me if they knew who I was and what I believe in.

 

I'm always walking on eggshells trying to keep who I am and what I believe quiet. My parents believe that being LGBTQ+ is sinful and a sickness, and all they would want to do would be to trap me in the house and make me listen to people (nuns and priests) explain why it's sinful and a sickness. They pretty much believe that they own me, and that I have to be who they want me to be based on their extreme religious views. 

 

It's so difficult to live around people who I know would never accept me and would hate me and everything I do. I have broken so many rules that they have set for me just by being myself. I know that this is a lot people who need help, but I really need help.

 

I developed severe depression, PTSD, and anxiety because of my parents, and I just really want to escape this environment. I have even been to the mental hospital 5 times in the past 2 years, and I really don't want to go back and forth from the hospital to this house over and over again. Being in this house makes me suicidal and mentally unwell, but I'm trying my best to survive.

I ran away recently and now I'm homeless. Please help. Even a dollar would be amazing.

 

Will you help me survive?

 

Thank you,

Marteen Ebrahim