Headstone for my baby boy, Cassius

Hi, my name is Aimee.

i have been trying to save up since my son passed away to get him a headstone for his resting place however being a single mum to 3 under 5 is virtually impossible. I am trying to raise the funds on my TikTok account through the creator fund and all I ask is people engage with my videos but any donation is so massively appreciated, I really didn’t want to start a go fund me but I have had so many people ask and my heart is sooo full.

a little back of a back story to what happened with my son.

I had a very normal pregnancy, he was my second baby and I had no complications (that I was aware of at the time)

my pregnancy was ‘textbook’ normal and straight forward, all scans were fine and he was never too big or too small. I did test positive for RhD+ whilst pregnant which meant I had antibodies in my blood that attacked his. However after a post mortem there was no answer as to what actually caused his passing. They said this ‘could’ve’ been the cause and due to this my two daughters after we’re both born at 37 weeks and are perfectly healthy.

I had a mentally draining pregnancy as my sons dad told me initially to get an abortion which I didn’t want to do, we split up until I was 7 months pregnant and my best friend supported me for the pregnancy, because it was lockdown and I was terrified of telling anyone I was pregnant, I didn’t even tell my family until I was 34 weeks pregnant. It kept it a secret to everyone because I was 21, single and already had a daughter. Fast forward to his birth, I was 39+2 weeks pregnant, and I went into spontaneous labour at 11am, my mum came to pick my eldest daughter up and I made my way to the hospital with my son’s dad. When I arrived at the birth centre everything was still extremely normal and I had no idea what was about to unfold. I was put into a room and then after about 20 minutes they came to do my observations, all I remember is a student midwife came in with a Doppler to check my sons heart rate, she was moving it around for a good 5 minutes and it kept coming and going and I could tell by the look on her face something wasn’t right, however because of the pains of contractions I was on gas and air and it all felt like a bit of a blur. Next thing I was put into a wheelchair and rushed up to the labour ward for a scan, there was about 10 doctors in the room and that’s where I heard the words I am so sorry but your baby has no heartbeat, it genuinely felt like someone had dug a knife into my chest. I was taken into a room on labour ward and told I had to still give birth to my baby and I wasn’t suitable for a c section, I was screaming, crying I couldn’t understand why this has happened to me. My sons dad left the hospital at this point. he honestly made the whole experience of the pregnancy birth etc so much more traumatic but it wasn’t about him it was about my babies. I gave birth to my angel baby, Cassius at 2pm on my own with 2 amazing midwife’s by my side. After this I spent hours with my son, he was perfect. No one could understand what had happened because looking at him and the placenta there was no issues, he was still warm so unfortunately he passed during the time of me getting to hospital and giving birth. To any angel mummy who is reading this I send so much love back to you because it genuinely never gets easier you just learn to live with the grief. I can’t bring my son back but I can make his garden the most beautiful place to take my daughters to. Thank you so much for reading my story I honestly appreciate every single bit of love I have received. I really don’t expect any donations but the smallest thing is soooo much appreciated