Heal to Live
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Hello Everyone, My Name is Ariel and I have created this effort in hopes of receiving your assistance.
I’m a Cancer survivor (Ovarian & Endometrial Stage II) & Lupus Warrior. For about four years, I’ve been sick consistently in some sort of way. Some days are better than others, and other days I feel like I’m barely going to make it. I’ve prayed, begged, and asked for healing. I’ve been low and I’ve even tried to commit suicide twice because of pain, the debt, and the feeling of being someone’s burden.
Outside of the physical toll my illness is taking on my body and the emotional burden that I have to bear, I am drowning in doctor bills. Each appointment I go in optimistic, but just seems like things aren’t getting any better. I honestly don’t feel like I’ve even lived much of life. At 26, I found out I had lupus. I went from working 6 days a week, to three, and then two. Some days I can’t get out of bed at all. At times, it feels like someone is throwing rocks at me, my skin feels like it’s crawling, and everything just HURTS! Some days it’s my mouth or my legs, or I can’t even open my hands, and I bruise so easily now. I go days without sleeping. When I finally do sleep, it feels like can’t wake up. And when I finally wake up, it feels like I never even went to sleep. I’ve lost friends because I’m not who I once was. I’m too weak to do any of the things I use to do.
At 27, the doctors found my cancer in just a routine check up... Completely changed my life. I’ve prayed to go back to that morning so many times. Although lupus had begun it’s course in my body, it was nothing like what was to come. That morning I was still able to become a mother. That morning I had my whole life ahead of me... But by that afternoon, I felt robbed. Like life was stolen from me. I put on a brave face, but I was scared. Many MRIs, CT Scans, ultrasounds, and just simply being poked on a million times later... Surgery was a must. They took it all. Full Hysterectomy, 7 malignant tumors, all my lymph nodes from my breasts down. My right ovary had even exploded sometime before surgery, and I didn’t even recognize the pain. I had become so use to pain that I didn’t feel anything that I thought was odd.
But... I beat it. I just turned 29, and I’m so blessed to still be here. But what you don’t realize after a surgery and ordeal like that, nothing will ever be the same. I’ll never become a mother for the rest of my life.
Every three months I have to see if she came back: “Cancer”. I’m going through menopause, I’m rare. I find myself constantly telling my story, just to explain why I’m having a hot flash. I’ve heard “you’re too young for that” so many times I can scream. People constantly asking when I’ll have kids? THAT HURTS! So many years of infertility, Clomid, Ovaboost, Fertile Aid I know those drugs so well. I miss the possibility of being pregnant, I remember my first positive ovulation test, I held it and cried and thanked God because I just knew it was my time, my turn to join the mommy club. I haven’t had sex since before surgery because it’s far too painful now. It feels like someone is starting a fire. Doctor’s think this is my life now. No surgery to fix the correction. It even burns to shower. I need help. I feel like my time is coming and I just want to pay my doctor bills off and hit the road so I can live a little. I want to see the world in all of it’s glory, before it’s my time.
Currently I planned to travel to a plastic surgeon that my Oncologist referred me to, to install Nerve Blockers, these should help with the Vaginal Pain/ Nerve damage. I'm also waiting for an opening at a new Rheumatologist Four Hours away, to get a Third opinion about my Lupus. Also decided it's time to look into antidepressants, and some sort of counseling and or therapy .
Why $12,722? That is the amount I Owe in Doctor Bills, some in collections, and some not...
As for my profession, I’m a hairstylist. And the pandemic put me so far into debt, I can’t get my head above water. I’m working through the pain, just so I don’t lose everything I have. Anything will help. And if you can’t give, please share the link pray for me. I’m scared of what tomorrow may bring, I just need a break and a taste of a fulfilled life.
I’m a Cancer survivor (Ovarian & Endometrial Stage II) & Lupus Warrior. For about four years, I’ve been sick consistently in some sort of way. Some days are better than others, and other days I feel like I’m barely going to make it. I’ve prayed, begged, and asked for healing. I’ve been low and I’ve even tried to commit suicide twice because of pain, the debt, and the feeling of being someone’s burden.
Outside of the physical toll my illness is taking on my body and the emotional burden that I have to bear, I am drowning in doctor bills. Each appointment I go in optimistic, but just seems like things aren’t getting any better. I honestly don’t feel like I’ve even lived much of life. At 26, I found out I had lupus. I went from working 6 days a week, to three, and then two. Some days I can’t get out of bed at all. At times, it feels like someone is throwing rocks at me, my skin feels like it’s crawling, and everything just HURTS! Some days it’s my mouth or my legs, or I can’t even open my hands, and I bruise so easily now. I go days without sleeping. When I finally do sleep, it feels like can’t wake up. And when I finally wake up, it feels like I never even went to sleep. I’ve lost friends because I’m not who I once was. I’m too weak to do any of the things I use to do.
At 27, the doctors found my cancer in just a routine check up... Completely changed my life. I’ve prayed to go back to that morning so many times. Although lupus had begun it’s course in my body, it was nothing like what was to come. That morning I was still able to become a mother. That morning I had my whole life ahead of me... But by that afternoon, I felt robbed. Like life was stolen from me. I put on a brave face, but I was scared. Many MRIs, CT Scans, ultrasounds, and just simply being poked on a million times later... Surgery was a must. They took it all. Full Hysterectomy, 7 malignant tumors, all my lymph nodes from my breasts down. My right ovary had even exploded sometime before surgery, and I didn’t even recognize the pain. I had become so use to pain that I didn’t feel anything that I thought was odd.
But... I beat it. I just turned 29, and I’m so blessed to still be here. But what you don’t realize after a surgery and ordeal like that, nothing will ever be the same. I’ll never become a mother for the rest of my life.
Every three months I have to see if she came back: “Cancer”. I’m going through menopause, I’m rare. I find myself constantly telling my story, just to explain why I’m having a hot flash. I’ve heard “you’re too young for that” so many times I can scream. People constantly asking when I’ll have kids? THAT HURTS! So many years of infertility, Clomid, Ovaboost, Fertile Aid I know those drugs so well. I miss the possibility of being pregnant, I remember my first positive ovulation test, I held it and cried and thanked God because I just knew it was my time, my turn to join the mommy club. I haven’t had sex since before surgery because it’s far too painful now. It feels like someone is starting a fire. Doctor’s think this is my life now. No surgery to fix the correction. It even burns to shower. I need help. I feel like my time is coming and I just want to pay my doctor bills off and hit the road so I can live a little. I want to see the world in all of it’s glory, before it’s my time.
Currently I planned to travel to a plastic surgeon that my Oncologist referred me to, to install Nerve Blockers, these should help with the Vaginal Pain/ Nerve damage. I'm also waiting for an opening at a new Rheumatologist Four Hours away, to get a Third opinion about my Lupus. Also decided it's time to look into antidepressants, and some sort of counseling and or therapy .
Why $12,722? That is the amount I Owe in Doctor Bills, some in collections, and some not...
As for my profession, I’m a hairstylist. And the pandemic put me so far into debt, I can’t get my head above water. I’m working through the pain, just so I don’t lose everything I have. Anything will help. And if you can’t give, please share the link pray for me. I’m scared of what tomorrow may bring, I just need a break and a taste of a fulfilled life.
Co-organizers (2)
Ariel Moore
Organizer
New Market, AL
Vic Washington
Co-organizer