My Emergency Relocation & Return to New College

Please help me relocate to safety and return to New College of Florida to complete my degree in philosophy after being targeted for violence by a white nationalist extremist.


Hi friends, 

I am writing today to seek your support in urgently relocating to safety and rebuilding my life away from ongoing threats of violence from prominent neo-Nazi lawyer and Charlottesville organizer Augustus Sol Invictus. 

Shortly after midnight on New Years’ Eve of December 2019, I learned the shocking news that white supremacist “alt-right” leader Augustus Sol Invictus had been taken into custody by U.S. marshals . Augustus is a white nationalist “alt-right” figure who authored the first draft of the "Unite the Right" manifesto for the tragic neo-Nazi rally in Charlottesville, Virginia. He has targeted me for increasingly extreme retaliation and abuse, including doxxing, SWAT-ting, defamation, falsifying police reports, threats, harassment, stalking, and the publication of revenge pornography. This has been ongoing since 2017 when I helped a teenage domestic violence victim escape him and report his horrifying abuse to the police.

Having been extradited to South Carolina, Invictus’ court date is January 15th. My life could be at stake if Augustus Invictus is granted bail before I relocate. Relocating out of the city where I currently live will dramatically increase my physical safety. This is both due to the risk of being targeted for violence, and due to the incredible toll the sheer stress of being “visible,” on the map of Augustus and his followers has taken on my psychological and physiological well-being. 

Among other acts of stalking and abuse, Augustus has previously SWAT-ted me by filing a provably false police report against me, alleging to police that I had been threatening to kill him and his family and bomb his home, from a phone number of mine which had long since been disconnected. Police came to my home and pounded on my door to question me about it. They left without incident, but the ordeal was terrifying and could have been much worse. He ritually hexed and incinerated an effigy of me on the day he filed this false report. The woman who helped him do this called 911 on him herself that night, stating to police he would not allow her to leave their apartment.
 

Augustus’ charges, for kidnapping his wife at gunpoint across state lines and engaging in “high and aggravated domestic violence,” have become a global news story.  Due to the accumulated charges he faces, he may be sentenced to a prison term of up to 65 years. For myself and at least four other women who have been victimized by him, our nightmare may finally be over. Augustus' actions have dominated my life since early 2017, when I helped a young woman escape their relationship and report him to the police after she came to me stating she was in fear for her life. Because this young woman was only 19 at the time (Augustus is 36), he held me primarily responsible for her disclosing his abuse. He then targeted me for retaliation. I have lived in terror until this recent arrest, and I know I am far from the only person to have suffered immensely due to Augustus’ acts.  


Now that Augustus is imprisoned, pending just sentencing, I am hopeful that ultimately, many people will end up safer and with a sense of closure and relief. But unfortunately, as a fellow domestic violence survivor reminded me, the short term future may be an even more dangerous time for me and his other victims. As I explained in an interview with the Daily Beast , I am deeply concerned for my physical safety if he is granted bail. Even if he is not released I am concerned about retaliation, due to rumors circulating among his followers that I coordinated his arrest with the FBI. There are two recent occasions on which I have reason to believe I have been followed in public. I have suffered a litany of abuse from Augustus besides. His stalking, defamation, false police reports, revenge pornography and statements of condemnation have incited his followers to target, harass, and threaten me since 2017. 

Invictus has close ties to numerous extremely dangerous figures in the white supremacist extremist movement, including former KKK wizard David Duke, "alt-right" leader Richard Spencer, ideological leader of the terrorist group Atomwaffen James Mason, and even the Unabomber Ted Kaczynski. In June of 2019, Augustus met with Kaczynski the Unabomber in person. Augustus subsequently sent me hostile postal correspondence threatening me. He emailed copies of their contents, but I never opened these parcels; fearing they were physically dangerous, I left them in a sealed bag in my closet and scrubbed my hands and face with water for twenty minutes. After this act of psychological terrorism, I became so hyper-vigilant with insomnia that I experienced episodes of blacking out, which sent me to the emergency room. At that point, I was arbitrarily institutionalized in a psychiatric hospital, because the attending ER physician believed that my extraordinary, true statements were delusional. Despite the corroboration of my statements by my psychiatrist, I was held in detention; I was violently administered psychiatric medications against my will, which my psychiatrist warned these doctors had caused me to go into a coma in the past. I could have died from this medical negligence and abuse. Thankfully, after four days, a public defender presented hospital psychiatrists with legal and police records indicating that my statements were true. I was immediately released. I was not delusional, even if I wish I had been. I wish this were imaginary; instead, Augustus is a very real human being.

 When I helped the young girl who approached me to escape him, he viewed this as a betrayal: of the code of silence, the brutal disdain for weakness, and the amoral, unconditional loyalty by which he expects anyone who cares about him to abide. “The lowest circle of hell is reserved for traitors, Alexandria,” he wrote to me. In the years since, his terroristic political agitating repeats this motto: “death to traitors.” Augustus wrote a book defaming me as well as publishing revenge pornography, of myself and one of his victims. He has also doxxed me and named me publicly to his followers as his “sworn personal and political enemy.”  Since Augustus obtained my home address by deception, strangers have pounded on my door at three in the morning. There are at least two incidences in the past month in which I have reason to suspect I was followed in public. I cannot know those events were connected, and nor can I rule them out.

I am determined to get through. If I can just get through this January, my intuition is that my life will dramatically improve and I will be able to heal. My semester at New College (in a city where I have deep roots of community and opportunity) for my bachelor’s degree in philosophy begins January 27th, and Augustus’ court date in Rock Hill, South Carolina is January 15th. I feel that I need physical security and safety perhaps more immediately than even food or medical care. As long as I am at risk of violence or psychological collapse, no amount of food or medical treatment will help me heal. The conditions in which I live are mutually reinforcing; medical issues I am developing will be impossible to resolve unless I can relocate to a physical space in which I do not suffer the stress of being existentially at risk of violence or death.

I am a survivor of stalking, assault and domestic violence from events many years ago, and clinically disabled with Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD). Since Augustus’ arrest on Dec 30th, I have been hospitalized three times for serious, physiological medical problems arising from the manner in which these events have exacerbated my C-PTSD. I am seeking medical care, and that takes time. It is due to this acute recent deterioration of my health that I have chosen to reach out for the economic support I need if I am to relocate and re-enroll at New College for the spring of this year.



Right now, I have less than ten dollars in the bank and I have very little food. I also lost my Macbook due to water damage; given I work from home on my laptop, I thus have lost my source of income. I have paid my January rent with the SSI disability I am privileged to receive, but the costs which remain are threefold: 1) relocation, 2) the implementation of safety and security measures upon relocating, and 3) a temporary replacement for my Macbook so that I may work again and be able to complete my upcoming coursework for school. 


Specifically, any funds I raise will go to the following expenses, in order of priority:

• Housing. For a studio or one-bedroom apartment near my college priced around $1,100 per month, I will need at least $3,000 to cover first and last month’s rent as well as a security deposit and/or any application fees.

• Moving Costs. I would estimate the cost of moving all my belongings to a new city around $500.

• Replacement Laptop. A laptop with internet, word processing capacity and video chat capability sufficient to allow me to fulfill responsibilities for work and school will be $500.

• Safety and Security Protocols. I have consulted with private security and have been advised to implement specific measures upon relocation to ensure my safety, which will cost approximately $400.

• Living Expenses for January. $500 would be a safe cushion to cover my electric bill for the month of January and to allow me to purchase groceries so that myself, my partner and my cat and dog do not go hungry.


I have been through experiences both terrible and extraordinary which distinguish my life from the lives of most people I know, and that is a fact which will remain true forever. I will never be the same, and I have gained hard-earned wisdom. Today, I can only resolve to learn and grow stronger. 

 A philosopher friend of mine once explained to me a distinction between two ancient Greek words for two forms of time: chronos (Χρόνος), or chronological time, on the one hand, and kairos, (καιρός), on the other. Unlike the linear, mechanical time of chronos, kairos is "a passing instant when an opening appears which must be driven through with force if success is to be achieved.” January 2020 is for me this critical moment of kairos, and my opportunity to heal. I wish nothing more than to close this chapter of my life and move forward into the future. I have been blessed with friends and community who have supported me, and encouraged me to process my experiences in writing. I have done my best to transform this deep pain into a mythology which can be healthily integrated into my psyche. Recently, I was lucky enough to have a creative essay on my experiences  with Augustus published in the winter issue of the literary magazine Acéphale. I have been contacted by numerous writers and journalists who wish to help me cultivate a robust foundation for telling my story. 


In my readmission letter to New College, the Student Academic Status Committee strongly encouraged me to take advantage of the institution’s creative writing resources and integrate revisions of my memoir into my coursework, alongside my work in academic philosophy. All I need to do now, in this moment of kairos, is survive. If I physically survive the month ahead, I will begin to feel I truly have a future ahead of me.


Thank you very much for taking the time to read this. Know in advance I am grateful for any form of support, however modest it may be. I appreciate any donations of any amount, along with sharing this crowdfund on social media. I am on a tight deadline: my goal is to raise the funds and relocate by the end of this month. If you have any questions, or would like to see evidence or consult a credible reference to corroborate the statements I have made above, do not hesitate to reach out. 

I know that my struggle is unique, but it is also representative, in a way, of our zeitgeist today. 


Stay strong everyone. We will get through these dark times together.