Help An Autistic Disabled Adult With Critical Needs

I just got done screaming at God while I was just on the toilet in my bathroom, to please HELP me, once and for all.

I am autistic and multiply-disabled in other ways as well. I have never been able to handle working at any job that can even remotely sustain me, so I suffer and do without many things I need.

Being disabled in America means we are given the crumbs off the floor, literally, relegated to endless poverty, needs, wants, and unmet dreams and goals.

My mom says she cannot help me more than she is doing ---- and I have critical needs now.

I have started having trouble updating my now 6 year old Windows 10 computer, and today, when I tried, it almost crashed. I need to either get a new Linux computer or go to an Apple computer, because Windows is no longer an operating system I feel safe using any longer.

I ended up postponing all Windows updates until October 5, so I can try to figure out **something**. Again, if you are disabled, figuring out **something** usually means going without that something.

But as of now, because of pure survival and past abusive caregivers who stole money and things from me, then COVID, I have had to turn to credit cards, and now I can ill-afford to pay those off ---- so I cannot put things like my vitamin orders and anti fungal creams on them any longer.

I badly need a desktop computer for things I cannot do on my tablet or phone.

I badly need new clothes, pants, and shirts, underwear and socks. Both pairs of pants I own all have holes all through them now.

I badly need my anti fungal creams and my vitamins.

My electric bill, 3 credit card bills, and grocery bills, are all eating me alive.

The mental hell and utter despair I am going through over this does not go away. It gets worse and worse, as do my meltdowns.

I do not have other family who can help either and most of them are sadly, unwilling to help me.

Is there anyone or any way I can get some help here before I am without even my tablet and phone too???????

Can a whole bunch of my friends please get together and send me some Amazon gift cards so I can get these things I need, so I won't have to do without??????