Help Black non-binary escape homophobic household
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Tw// homophobia, transphobia, suicide
Hello everyone, my name is Nova. I’m a black non-binary gay Muslim who has reached the point where I have to choose between living my life authentically or my family. I’m suffering from severe depression, suicidal thoughts and abuse due to my living situation.
I’m the youngest of 8 children who were raised up with ultra-religious conservative parents and it has been a challenge. Both of my parents are openly homophobic and transphobic and like to remind me so everyday. One of the most traumatic memories is my dad having me and my siblings sit around the dinner table and ask each of us “what do we do to gay people?” and we would have to take turns and to answer something violent. I was suppressing my sexuality at the time that I was 11 because I was scared for my life. During pride parades in the hometown my dad would go on rants about how gay people should be thrown off buildings and stoned to death with the rest of my family echoing and supporting his opinions. Not only did I live in a toxic household but I was forced to attend a religious school from a very young age that held the same exact statements as my dad. You can imagine what this would do to a child mentally.
None of these people would hesitate to beat me to death, send me to conversion therapy or even worse, kill me in order to protect our family's’ honour. My family would rather have a “dead child” than a “gay one”. Every day I’m scared for my life thinking they’ll find out. It has hindered me to the point I feel paralyzed and unable to escape awaiting for some sort of death sentence. My soul is exhausted and beaten to the point where I think death is my only escape. I don’t want to feel like this anymore.
Thanks to both social media and real life friends I’ve made I have been able to hold on to hope and heal in a way from the trauma. They also made me realize that I have a community who is there for me and that would help me escape. They showed me so so much love, and I’m forever grateful for them.
I’m hoping that with this GoFundMe I’ll be able to live a life away from toxic and abusive people of my hometown that have caused me so much harm. I wanna live a life where I’m able to smile and appreciate that I’m alive. I wanna live a life where I can express myself without fearing for my life.
Due to safety reasons I won’t be revealing my identity and due to the high risk of getting attacked, I will have to relocate somewhere very far from my hometown.
This gofundme money will be used to:
-Relocate to another city away from my family
-Documentation for the city I’m relocating to
-Groceries etc
-Pay for rent for a couple months till I secure a job
-And things for the apartment, small furnitures
-Therapy
-Safety net
Hello everyone, my name is Nova. I’m a black non-binary gay Muslim who has reached the point where I have to choose between living my life authentically or my family. I’m suffering from severe depression, suicidal thoughts and abuse due to my living situation.
I’m the youngest of 8 children who were raised up with ultra-religious conservative parents and it has been a challenge. Both of my parents are openly homophobic and transphobic and like to remind me so everyday. One of the most traumatic memories is my dad having me and my siblings sit around the dinner table and ask each of us “what do we do to gay people?” and we would have to take turns and to answer something violent. I was suppressing my sexuality at the time that I was 11 because I was scared for my life. During pride parades in the hometown my dad would go on rants about how gay people should be thrown off buildings and stoned to death with the rest of my family echoing and supporting his opinions. Not only did I live in a toxic household but I was forced to attend a religious school from a very young age that held the same exact statements as my dad. You can imagine what this would do to a child mentally.
None of these people would hesitate to beat me to death, send me to conversion therapy or even worse, kill me in order to protect our family's’ honour. My family would rather have a “dead child” than a “gay one”. Every day I’m scared for my life thinking they’ll find out. It has hindered me to the point I feel paralyzed and unable to escape awaiting for some sort of death sentence. My soul is exhausted and beaten to the point where I think death is my only escape. I don’t want to feel like this anymore.
Thanks to both social media and real life friends I’ve made I have been able to hold on to hope and heal in a way from the trauma. They also made me realize that I have a community who is there for me and that would help me escape. They showed me so so much love, and I’m forever grateful for them.
I’m hoping that with this GoFundMe I’ll be able to live a life away from toxic and abusive people of my hometown that have caused me so much harm. I wanna live a life where I’m able to smile and appreciate that I’m alive. I wanna live a life where I can express myself without fearing for my life.
Due to safety reasons I won’t be revealing my identity and due to the high risk of getting attacked, I will have to relocate somewhere very far from my hometown.
This gofundme money will be used to:
-Relocate to another city away from my family
-Documentation for the city I’m relocating to
-Groceries etc
-Pay for rent for a couple months till I secure a job
-And things for the apartment, small furnitures
-Therapy
-Safety net
Organizer
Thana Douwa
Organizer
Frankfurt, Hessen