Help Dr.Mohammed carry on his mission and dream

There's a lot of disasters on earth, natural ones like earthquake and volcanoes, other humanmade, but the worst of all is war.

I'm Dr.Mohammed Al-Qedra, a gazawi doctor who's recently graduated from Qadarf medical school in Sudan. I've been back in Gaza for only few months before the worst war to ever happen began, however I've witnessed a lot of battles where Israel attacked Gaza and destroyed it over and over, ever since my childhood and I've seen the Sudan civil war but what happened in 2023 war on Gaza was a true genocide and a massacre with all it's means against this small overpopulated city.

I've used to have a lot of dreams where I save people after MVA's or BBO's and becoming a great surgeon who'll help ppl to live a healthy life like my dad who's a pediatrician but all those dreams were forgotten when I volunteered in Nasser medical complex to work as an E.D doctor where no one imagined that it'll be that bad, what I saw is something that'll haunt me during my life, the bloodshed, the deaths and the faces of the patients when I tell them that they'll lose a limb or when I tell their lived ones that they are gone, the hours spent in treating a child and resuscitate him to announce him dead after 5 hours of givving the medical care he needed but it was of no use.

After all this time, I've even forgotten what does a normal life look like and what it's to be happy or what were my dreams, what did I use to do in my free time, which I don't have anymore, or how does my bedroom look like, I guess I'll never remember since our house was destroyed, what did my mom's voice sounds like before the house was boombed while she was in it.

I don't know what to do anymore or how to run away from this massacre, my dad has neurological disease which he doesn't have medication for, how will he withstand it.

I want to go on and help the people in Gaza but even the hospital was destroyed, the Israeli army seiges the hospital with us inside and tortured us and humiliated us and then simply left and as we were trying to rebuild the hospital they came back again and airstriked the hospital to abolish our dreams of ever getting back on our feet and help the injured.

As much as I want to stay and help but my mental health can't bear anymore horrific scenes, I just can't see another child with amputated limb and condolence him as he's gasping his last brath, So please with all means help me to evacuate Gaza so I become the surgeon needed for such situation and so I can come back stronger and better.

Help me to run away from this massacre, this genocide, because I can't bear the despair, the torture, the death, help me evacuate from this hell.