Help Ella Escape Abusive Household

Hello, my name is Ella and this is not something I’ve ever done in my life, and nor is it something I would ever do I’m normally the one helping others through these. However, I’ve come to a point in my life where I’ve realized I need to seek out help from others because of the situation I’m in, and even just someone reading my story I have the upmost gratitude for, thank you.

I’m in a situation right now where I’m working from home to avoid bringing covid home to my high risk family members, and working from home is not the best source of income during a dire time like the one I’m in but I feel obligated to protect others. Working from home has also lead me to remain in the abusive situation I’m in, day in and day out. I am living with a narcissist, who has not only manipulated me into feeling as if I will never get out, but other members of my family as well. I have had money taken from me that was saved up for the things I’m asking in this gofundme from this person. I’ve suffered a great deal of anxiety and depression, especially PTSD, from my home life which has lead to me stopping college for the time being. I know that getting back into school is something I need to do, however because of my living situation I feel so overwhelmed from the constant abuse that it feels nearly impossible to get back while here. Focusing on my passions in school and retaining information just doesn’t feel within reach right now. I feel like I have just bundled myself in my room, praying to avoid any further trauma or anything that will lead to more suffering. I have been constantly put down, made to feel unworthy and hopeless since I was just a child unable to even understand what hopelessness meant. I’m so tired of seeing addictions being enabled by this person, seeing drama purposefully caused, and being manipulated; so much to the point where I don’t have money saved for the things I need. This is supposed to be my family, and I don’t know where else to turn, but I’m hoping here is the right path.

So, I’m asking for help to be able to pay off a little bit of what I need to pay for school right now, because if I am able to do so then I can solely focus on getting out of this living situation and continuing my life, bettering my mental health, my education, and my future. If I can at least pay off a little bit of what is needed, I can focus on saving up to move out. Thank you so much for at least taking the time to read, I am grateful for even positivity and love sent my way. Thank you again.