Help Jack escape an abusive relationship

My name Is Jack. I'm an extremely private person. This Is the last thing I have ever wanted to do. I hope all of you who are reading this understand that I would never ask for help unless I completely needed It. This is very hard for me.

I experienced severe physical, mental and sexual abuse from my father and sister growing up from the time I was born all the way until I turned 19. I also lost my mother on my 13th birthday. I was in a position of life or death when I met my ex fiancé. We quickly fell In love, and for the first time In my life I was able to free myself from my family. We moved in together and things were going well. I was suffering from PTSD and trauma from the events of my family. I told him about what I had went through. His mother was homophobic, and didn't approve of her son being gay. She tried to ruin our relationship from the start, which resulted In him hitting me. From there I realized he had severe mental health Issues he hid over the loss of his grandparents. The abuse and lies became even more frequent and violent as time went on. He strangled me, sliced me with a knife, pushed me, and more. He also threatened to kill me. He was extremely suicidal, and always threatened to kill himself.

Below, I’ve attached pictures of some of my injuries from the abuse, as well as screenshots of conversations with my ex, where he admits to the abuse.

I had insomnia after covid hit, and I regularly got two hours of sleep a night, which caused me to have heart problems, headaches, and a worsening of my anxiety disorder and depression. I could not handle having a conversation, and I became a zombie. I have never recovered from that loss of sleep. It still affects me and I suffer from crippling anxiety every time I struggle to sleep. As I struggled with that, the abuse continued to get worse. I lost myself completely and became a former shell of who I once was. I started lying and hiding the abuse from my friends, which Is not like me. I was incredibly ashamed. At the time, I even had thoughts of suicide. Sometimes I still do because I’m afraid this is never going to end. The pictures I provided show a small fraction of the effects of the abuse I went through - the bruises, wounds, welts, scratches, and more. He would slap and punch me so hard it would leave a handprint on me. He would dig his fingernails into my skin causing me to bleed. He would grab me and throw me around. I was so afraid. I thought he might kill me or kill himself.

I finally opened up to my friends who are the only family I have about the abuse and they gave me the courage to end our engagement after two years of being together, in November of 2020. However, I had nowhere to go, and he offered to help me financially so I wouldn’t be homeless, and co-signed for my new apartment, and again for another one after that first lease was up. He had agreed to get help and keep our distance from each other, so I decided to keep this hidden from my friends. Then, four days ago, I agreed to meet up with him to talk. We had a conversation and he wanted us to get back together. I didn't want to get back together with him and we got into an argument. He tried to grab a knife. I grabbed it to keep It away from him in an attempt to keep him from threatening suicide again and to ensure my own safety. He grabbed the blade. We kept going back and forth and the knife sliced both of us. The neighbors called the police, and I was wrongfully arrested for assault. I spent around 48 hours in jail and in that time I was sexually assaulted, threatened and abused. My ex’s mother bailed me out. She knows her son Is a sociopath. She told me I didn't deserve this and is trying to offer help, even though I have begged her for help in the past. I want to finally fully sever ties with them, as they are all abusive, not just my ex, and not be dependent on people who have constantly put my life in danger.

Once again, I am not the person to ask or beg for help, but I will be homeless in three weeks. I am losing my apartment that my ex co-signed for. I’m honestly scared I’m going to be homeless and I’m I’m scared for me and my dog If we have nowhere to live. I need money to survive and to start a new life. Anything anyone can do to help - even If you just share the link on social media - would tremendously be appreciated and help me. I’ve never been able to afford to go to a doctor to have it made legal, but my dog is essentially my emotional support animal. I can’t be without him or him without me. I’m really hoping for a miracle. I don’t think I’ve ever been this scared with all the legal stuff and the potential of becoming homeless. I am hoping I can find a place far away from my deranged ex and his family where I can keep my dog.