Help Julian with Top Surgery Recovery

Hello--

My name is Julian (he/him) and I'm fundraising to help me pay for rent and bills during an unstable time in which I cannot work due to upcoming top surgery.

An update:

When I started this GFM, I was unable to pay rent due to joblessness, and then found an employer soon after. However, it is not a sustainable job for me and I may need to search for a new job soon after surgery. Thus, my GFM total may increase to reflect that need so I can pay bills.

A second update (November 30th)

I was just fired from my job after only three weeks on payroll for daring to ask if I could work in a separate room from a sick coworker. At this point, my only hope is to scramble for a remote position somewhere, but I do not know when this will happen. My paycheck is probably going to just pay for one month of bills and necessitates. My situation is getting more uneasy, and I have increased the GFM total to reflect this.

End of update

A little about me: I'm a trans guy who started hormones a little over a year ago now. A little bit about myself: I'm a singer/songwriter, a poet, and a visual artist who mostly likes doing portraits and gouache paintings. I'm also really into fashion and music appreciation! I love going on adventures and being with my found family, who have been super supportive and loving as I've gone on this gender journey, and whom I am very thankful for.

Before I even began testosterone, I wanted to get top surgery. I'm so glad that I transitioned hormonally as well, but this part of my transition has always been one of the most important to me.

Even before I came out to myself as being a genderqueer binary trans man, I identified as nonbinary. Before this, I still was using a binder because I felt genderfluid and on the days that I felt like a man, I wanted to obscure my feminine silhouette. I tried a binder on for the first time when I was about 18 or 19, and I've been regularly using one for the past five years now. I hate the way I look with my chest, and I wish I could just go out without having to wear a binder in order to feel comfortable in my own skin. The five years of binding has shown me how much this surgery is important to me.

I'm also in recovery from/still battling an eating disorder that combines with my dysphoria. Some days are easier than others, but I feel that having a flat chest will help ease my dysphoria and make it less likely that I will relapse into my eating disorder too.

These days, I'm a lot happier, despite the fact that I am currently between things and many parts of my life are externally a bit vague and uncertain. All I know is that top surgery is going to change my life for the better and make me happier with myself and my gender expression.

If you got this far, then thank you for supporting me on this journey. Anything you can donate really helps! <33