Help Lexi with Rent and Expenses

Hi there, my name is Lexi. I'm a 25 year old disabled lesbian artist from KY.

At the end of last year, I had a full on mental breakdown. I got as low as I thought I could get--I had just lost a good friend to an overdose, and it reignited a lot of long-repressed trauma to the point where I just could not handle the stress anymore. My best friend convinced me that I was on a dark road and needed to seek therapy, which I did end up doing. I got diagnosed at the beginning of this year with PTSD, anxiety, depression, and crippling ADHD. I ended up quitting my job due to the immense psychological stress I was under, but I tried to be responsible--I had a backlog of money saved up to cover my finances, since I'm renting the basement of my parent's house.

That lasted up until July of this year due to having to pay unexpected bills for my dog and astronomical phone bills because my mother had a line on my account. When I was unable to pay the phone bill, she promptly jumped ship and got onto my stepdad's plan, a new phone and a new line, having never asked me if they could put that money towards helping me pay the bill instead--so I was without a phone, it ended up getting cancelled for non-payment.

My mental health continues to be a constant struggle, to the point where I am anxious and overwhelmed 24/7. My parents are blaming me for all of our financial hardships, despite us agreeing I'd only pay $150 in rent from May going forward. I'm seeking out disability, but the process takes time, and it's time I just simply do not have--they're trying to force me to go into a fast food job even though I've already expressed multiple times that non-customer-facing, non-intensive labor jobs already had me on the cusp of suicide. They do not believe me when I say I am suicidal, either; they think I'm saying it "for attention" and they don't think any of the things I've been diagnosed by healthcare professionals with are real; they just think I'm lazy, that I like to be nasty (regarding executive functioning issues causing poor hygiene), and that I'm attention-seeking because I'm jealous of my 6 year old sister. They even went as far as telling my grandmother not to help me sign up for food stamps because it would "just encourage her to be lazy".

I was able to give them $90 from commissions last month to my own personal detriment--I paid them instead of buying myself food, and have lived off ramen and whatever I can get from the food bank or whatever my grandma has been able to spare. At one point this year I weighed a measly 85 lbs. I'm 25, I'm 5'2"--that's an outrageously low number. I'm not much higher than that now, though. I'm at 94 lbs. as of the last time I talked to my psychiatrist.

To be honest, I need the money so that I can pay my parents and so that they will get off my back until I'm able to see the disability application through. I calculated that I owe them around $360, but the extra would be going towards October's expense. I am still trying to do commissions to keep my head above the water, but it's just not enough. Any help you can offer would be greatly appreciated and would mean the world to me. It hurts my pride to have to make this gofundme in the first place, I HATE asking for handouts, and if you are able to donate and want a sketch, please come to my twitter @/ToastyLioness and I am more than happy to doodle you something. It's not much I know, but it's all I can offer at the moment.

Again, any donations, even just a dollar, are more than appreciated! Any shares or boosts for this gofundme are super appreciated as well, everything counts. Thank you so much for reading my rambling down to this point, and even if you can't donate I hope you have a great day and find $20 on the sidewalk.