Help Us Save My Son

My name is Molly, most of you know me from my You Tube channel The Real Housewives of Tarot. I have ways been the one to donate to these fundraisers, never thought in a million years I'd have to create one, and even considered not even starting one, however, I'm learning it is okay to need help and ask for it ,that's why I decided to reach out for support. I am a single mom of 4 children- Stevie 16 (his 17th Birthday is tomorrow ), Abby 15, Bentley 8, and Carter 7. My children as well as myself have been through a lot in the last several years (certain things I cannot display due to privacy), but Stevie has suffered the most trauma- mentally, and emotionally. He's always suffered from anxiety and depression, but has always been the most outgoing, fun-loving, caring, and always puts others first ahead of himself. He loves his siblings, and was a HUGE part of a teen counseling program counseling other children who were struggling. On a Thursday morning, what appeared be a normal misunderstanding, was anything but that turning into a five-day delusional/manic/psychotic episode. At first, I was unsure what was happening, until he wasn't making sense anymore, detached from reality, a gigantic loss of sense of self, and believed the world was coming to an end, "The Purge" he called it. I have never had my heart ripped out of my chest to look into my son's eyes and see emptiness, confusion, sadness, and such an un-realized cry for help, and completely detached from reality. But, the still 16 year old in him refused to allow me to take him to the ER to be mentally evaluated. That five days of myself, along with his siblings in fear, I didn't sleep out of fear he'd hurt himself or one of my other children- In five days I called the cops 3 times, in which one of the five days he'd shaved his head and ran away on foot only to be found 12 hrs later hours from our home. I'd called his pediatrician several times and they scheduled a visit DAYS away. I begged, and pleaded that my son wasn't mentally well, and still felt not heard... until the third time I'd called the cops, I walked in behind them to hear the cop yell at my son, "STEVEN, PUT DOWN THE KNIFE!!!" My son was standing on his bed with his knife to his throat, and that was the first time in my life I wanted to hit the floor. They FINALLY took him by cop car to the ER, and my son is seriously mentally ill in which it'll still be days before an official diagnosis. He is currently hospitalized, and the only mental health facility for teens is in Portland Oregon, which is hours from me. I was denied health insurance by a few hundred dollars, and I'm struggling. With all the trauma we've been through this last year, and now this, I'm trying to make ends meet as well as save my son and it is going to be a price tag that as of right now, I cannot buy. I'm asking for help in the sense of the cost of his hospital stay, and potentially what will be a hefty ambulance transport bill from Newport Oregon to Portland to a mental health facility (im hoping and praying this facility wont be needed ), and I have no idea how much that could potentially be, including mine and the kids travel expenses and hotel stays. Anything truly helps, even if it's just your positive/healing thoughts, energy, and prayers for healing sent Stevie's, my other children's, and my way. I'm just asking for love and support through this time as I have no family or friends in the Newport Oregon area, and need help so I can focus on my children's and my healing. We will overcome!!!!