Help Mythic and Maddie Find A Little More Stability

Hi, I'm Mythic and I don't really want to do this, but I'm running out of options.

I've been on disability for about 5 years. I thought I'd be better by now, but healing is an excruciatingly slow process. It doesn't help that I live alone and don't have any friends or family in the area. If not for my therapist, who has gone above and beyond to help me when she can, I don't know that I would have made it this far.

I try to stay positive, but it's hard. I don't want to bring others down and am more likely to withdraw than talk about my problems. Posting this at all feels terribly uncomfortable and selfish. It's hard to undo a lifetime of being told "others have it worse."

I'm doing the best I can trying to keep things going, but everything has been slowly falling apart.

In July 2020, my car broke down. It still hasn't been repaired. At this point, I'm not even sure it's fixable. I'm lucky that my doctors can do virtual appointments. I'm also lucky that the hospital is very near by and I can walk if I truly need to. But anything further away is out of my reach.

My shower broke in 2021, literally three days after my very lonely 40th birthday. I've made multiple attempts to get it fixed, including over 18 months trying to get a local non-profit to help me out, and it's still broken. For the last three years I've been washing my hair in the sink and using a bucket to take a bath. I'm grateful I have a working sink and a bucket, but also, there are days where I break down because showers were consistently one of the things that made me feel better, and I don't have that anymore.

My roof leaks in the kitchen. (Another thing that non-profit said they could help me with, but... just because a person asks for help doesn't mean they always get it.)

I have to pay for my medications out of pocket. One of my medications is considered a "luxury" medication (because healthcare in this country is a luxury I guess) and is very expensive. Several months ago I realized I could no longer afford it. I had to switch to a lower quality medication that I've been on in the past and which does not work well for me. I've noticed the decline in my health. I don't want to be on disability forever, but it's hard to get better when you can't even get the meds you truly need.

I've cut costs everywhere wherever I can. I've changed cell phone providers to something cheaper. I don't have cable or netflix, but if I did, the would have been canceled already. Amazon Prime was canceled years ago.

I eat the cheapest food I can - lots of rice and pasta.

I've applied for every assistance program I can. (The government program to help pay for internet costs recently ended and it doesn't look like it's going to be renewed anytime soon.)

My cat hasn't been to the vet in a few years. I am no longer able to put flea medicine on her, which has thankfully not been a major issue yet. I tried switching her to a less expensive cat food and she had an allergic reaction to it. I'd rather go hungry than give her food that makes her feel sick.

And through it all, I've still tried so hard to help others. I've donated to other GoFundMe's and charity drives what couple dollars I could spare here and there because I know what it's like to not have enough.

And I was managing, so it was fine.

But now I'm realizing everything is not fine. I don't have enough to make ends meet the rest of the year and I need help.

I know things are hard for everyone, and I don't want anyone to distress themselves to help me, but if you could spare a little. I'd truly appreciate it.

I'm hoping to raise $2500, which will ensure all of my bills are covered for the rest of the year. That's all I'm asking for. I don't expect my car to get fixed or my shower to get fixed or to suddenly be able to afford the "luxury" medication. I just want to know that my cat and I will still have a roof over our heads, food to eat, and not be hounded by bill collectors the rest of the year.

Thank you.