Help Rev pay for top surgery!

Hello everyone!

Over the years, my family might recall me making comments such as "When I get married, I'm going to wear the tux and make the man wear the dress" (This before I knew I was gay), writing stories where it 'sounded' like the protagonist was written as a boy, even though I had written the character purely using my own mindsets. I may be recalled either disparaging traditional feminine gender roles, embracing my masculine hairstyles, rejecting traditional feminine presentation. I officially learned I was nonbinary when I was around seventeen, but because it was so fluid for me and I SOMETIMES felt comfortable in femininity, it was something I ignored.

I have been out to my friends and coworkers as gender fluid for some time, even before I decided to change my name and pronouns. Regarding my closest friends, I have openly expressed wanting a flat chest for at least four years now.

In truth, ever since I was around fourteen years old, my chest has made me immensely uncomfortable. When I first 'acquired it', I used to swear up and down that when I was an adult I'd chop them off. Even into adulthood, I found myself trying methods of making peace with my chest - tight sports bras to flatten them for YEARS, binders, and piercings. At the end of it, nothing resolved the discomfort that my chest gives me.

On my good days, I can at best ignore it. On my bad days, I feel like my skin is crawling, like I'll be sick even looking down and seeing anything other than flat. There are NO days where I enjoy my chest, where I feel connected to it. This was not something I ever expressed to my family, though it might have been mentioned once in passing to those closest to me. Why would I want to talk about something I didn't even want to be there in the first place? Acknowledging how uncomfortable I felt only made it harder to push it down and ignore, made it harder to live with something I'd never have the power to do anything about.

I never let myself consider top surgery as an option because I never thought it would be possible, for financial reasons. I learned recently that insurance can sometimes cover part of the costs. Unfortunately, when I was only 1k from my own savings and a couple months away from the scheduled surgery, my cat was diagnosed with high grade lymphoma, and I’ve basically had to start from scratch saving for the surgery due to her high medical bills for her treatment. At the time, due to my cats diagnosis of lymphoma and her current treatment regime/costs, loans for my top surgery aren’t possible.

Every little bit helps. Even if you're only able to donate a small amount, it eases the struggle to find peace in my body. Any donations are extremely appreciated and have my utmost gratitude on this journey. Thank you all for your support!!!