Help Rody get his life back

What the money is for: to help me get coverage to start working 280 a month... if I can get 2 months awesome, any extra goes towards what gear im going to have to buy up to 4g... The sooner the money.. the sooner I can apply for this coverage and hopefully get back to working in 2 weeks...

Alright... Here I am... Vulnerable as fuck... I don't tend to ask ppl for help... In fact I HATE IT... But I have no choice here... I really need some in order for my life to go back to normal... I've changed my life after the heart attack... Rarely drink... still use Marijuana, and cut down my smoking by half... Intend to go to the vape next... and continue from there... I've drastically changed my diet... all Positive things... Only thing is... since All this... I've lost my Career and any sorta outside income... my parents have been helping me get by rent and all that since sept... I couldnt get EI due to not having enough hours ( cuz I didn go back to work long before I was taken out by the heart attack)...

I am now looking to get back to working for myself... but I need to get some PERSONAL protection through wcb for myself in order for me to begin work in two weeks... I'm also gonna have to drop 4 grand on gear that I will own for my job... but I can pay that off while working... it's the 280 a month for this WCB protection That's setting me back from being able to start at the moment... The governmet from past ei claims have now just gave me a bill for 500 cuz they overcharged me a few years ago... I can barely afford ALL the meds I need over the past few months...I just feel like im sinking slowly here... I just so want to go back to what I did for work... My rope ticket has expired as well... but I have no interest of getting that back unless I somehow end up in another field of work... I've done the course 3 times and im not giving them another 2 g for stuff I been doing for the past 10 years... so This guy im subcontracting from... doesn't require me to have tickets... and also most jobs are 20 stories and lower... not going above 30.... which will make my life a little easier seeing as how I am not a young pup no more... only thing he requires from me is this PERSONAL PROTECTION Coverage for me to get started... that and whenever the gear thats ordered comes in ( hoping within 2 weeks here ) I just need help on this start up folks .... I fucking hate asking... It makes me feel fucking stupid... foolish... Embarrassed... But I have no choice... it's either this or I have no clue what Im gonna do... My personality doesnt fit into different type of work... I've tried them when I was younger... This is what makes me... It's who I am... It's how I can exist in this society somehow... So this job is almost all I got left it feels like.... so I just want it to be known how hard it is for me to put any of this out there... argh.... ANYWAY

Now I know it's been rough for everyone past few years... boy do I Understand that... I feel that 100%... That being said I dont hold it against anyone who cannot help... but if you are in a position to do so... I would forever be grateful... I feel like I have lost everything and I havent been in a very good place due to that... I am hoping if I get my career back that will bring some joy back into my life... So again no pressure... If you can help cool... if not... it's also cool... I just hope you are in a good place at least and doing well or better than me ha ! ...

I'll be setting up a Gofundme in a little while... and if no one wants to do it through there I can obviously accept email money transfers... OK WEW ! Man was that also hard to type out and press enter on... THANKS EVERYONE for at least hearing me out... I'm wishing you all well...

Love, Rody