Help Save Goose! : Our Beloved Kitten & Leah's best friend

My name is Leah. I am the "mom" of Goose. Goose is my 8-month-old kitten. He is the light of my life!

I never thought I would be doing this, asking people for help, but I have exhausted my finances and credit.

Goose has pancreatitis, inflammation of the intestines and some deformities on one kidney. We are waiting on biopsies. He had surgery a couple of months back where I spent the bulk of my money totaling over 5 grand.

I am about to take him to the emergency vet in Poulsbo, Washington because he is violently vomiting again and won't take water or food.(( I took him nov 22 and he was given out patient instructions to include SQ fluids. I have to administer myself and it's HELL I've never hated something more . I don't know if you've ever had to stab you beloved pet with a needle everyday but I zero out of 10 recommend!

At the last vet visit, the day before last, nov 20) they gave him anti-nausea medication and fluids under the skin and sent us home. They said if he wasn't feeling better to come in for X-rays.

He was lively yesterday morning, ate, drank, and even had a little poo. I never imagined I would be so excited over poop, but I was celebrating. I miss that feeling because yesterday evening he went downhill again. Vomiting more fluids than I can force on him. I've tried everything.

Spoon feeding, all foods not harmful, kitten milk, even 1/4 Pepcid. He is fading, and I can't stand it. I take him for trips in his stroller. He goes with me almost everywhere and follows me around. He is my best friend, and I'm freaking out.

I lost my mother and my sister, who were people I would be leaning on for comfort right now if they were alive, and early this year, I lost my aunt Diane, my mother's sister and a second mother to me, to an unexpected taking of her own life. I say that only to convey that I'm not sure my brain can take all this loss. I know people have a point where they break, and I feel like I could be close.

I know I should be stronger, especially for my family and daughter, but I'm scared. I've never loved a "pet" so much. If he was older, I would understand saying goodbye because of a long, happy life.

Goose isn't even a year! I'm not ready to say goodbye. I need more time to love him. I am begging for any help I can get. I am desperately listing whatever I can that I own on FB Marketplace and eBay in between cleaning up his vomit and comforting him or trying to coax food and water.

I will do anything to save him, and I don't know what to do. Please help me help him.

UPDATE . There has been further testing done and biopsies taken and sent to labs and we do not have all the results back as they will need to be sent out for additional lab work, but it is showing some kind of infectious disease. They do not have it narrowed down yet and that is what the further testing will be for. I still don't know if this is due to a medication he was prescribed that was possibly contaminated, or something he may have caught from the Kitsap humane society or from his litter mates etc. I just know that I'm fighting every day with him to keep him well and alive. I know that it's one of the worst things I've ever had to go through.

I know that I've had to administer SQ fluids on my own at the house because I counted afford to pay $1,200 a night to have him stay in the hospital to receive care so I am play acting as a veterinary tech and it's actually hell.

I don't know if you've ever had to stab your baby pet with a needle every night, but I zero out of 10 recommend it. Definitely not a hobby you want to pick up. I'm fairly certain this is some form of punishment for every single bad deed I've ever done in my life or will do. If there is a hell most assuredly mine is going to be having to do what I currently have to do every night for eternity. I just want this to be over I just want him to stay healthy He deserves it. He's really a good boy he's the sweetest cat and I don't think that I can live without him.

Facebook reel of Goose

A TikTok about a grey Goose

Update :

Gus has shown much improvement with this antibiotics, I make sure to give him probiotics daily as well. His last vet appointment went okay except that they think that he might have asthma which I am just like, can he not have everything? I feel like he doesn't I've been watching very closely but I may get him tested I just have to be able to afford the interest payments on this credit card or I can't help him or my other animals should something happen I'm just really overwhelmed