Help Sebastian Pay for New Therapist
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Hi everyone, my name is Isis Valadez... if you know me in person. But online, I'm Sebastian, Sebby, Duck, Ducky, or Salem Starmoon. I am a 22-year-old black & LGBT artist living in Colorado.
I love to draw colourful, beautiful black characters and women. I also love to collect soap, erasers, tarot decks, embroider, sing, dance, take pictures of the lovely places around me, and be around my loved ones. I have been drawing for most of my life since I could pick up a pencil, and my ultimate dream is to go to a good art school to become an illustrator and animator, and eventually, pitch my own show, or work for Disney.
I live with my partner, his sibling, and another roommate here in CO. We also have a pet cat named Jeremy. I have been living independently with these roommates since 2018.
As we all know, the current situation has had us all messed up and more often than not, needing more money. I do work, but after paying bills (I live near Denver, for reference), I'm usually not left with much, especially when it comes to getting a hold of a therapist I need and will have to invest in.
Most of my closest friends know I've been getting therapy since July 2020, but have been on and off with it most of my life. I stopped getting therapy as of October 2020 because the services I was being provided on a certain application from two separate counselors were in no way helpful or serving me.
As a black person, I find it beyond difficult to get the help I need when it comes to therapy. I often feel worse, or isolated, when given nonblack, nonfemale therapists to work with, most of who are prejudiced and cannot properly provide me the care I need when I've needed it. The therapists I've been given have been unreliable and incompatible with my needs.
The truth is, I have been suicidal for weeks now. I have plans to attempt suicide. I have attempted to commit suicide a small handful of times throughout my life; especially in the few recent years. I often feel trapped, and like I cannot be helped, but I know this is not true.
On October 10th/11th, I posted a letter on my private social media stating I would take my life. I didn't do it simply because I did not have the time or space alone to do so, and I was finally talked down by my loved ones.
I realize that I am not alone and do not have to face my suffering alone. I have gotten an outpour of support I did not ever, ever anticipate. This alone has made me feel seen, heard, and grateful... but most importantly, willing to give my life another chance.
I am trying to better my life. I want to better my life badly, but I need help. I am asking kindly for your help in gathering funds to see a local black, female therapist I have located in my city & with reasonable rates, and accessibility (I cannot drive and am somewhat disabled, she provides sessions over video chats which is a great help to me). If need be, I can provide more proof of billing as time passes, but sessions are going to be expensive and I need as much help as possible.
I wish to keep living, but I need this therapist, and I need help so I can keep living a healthier life, and so I can recover from what I've been through. This will also be a stepping stone in achieving my dreams.
Please consider donating. Everything here will go solely towards the first few therapy sessions; which will massively increase my quality of life and mental health.
Thank you for reading, I am forever eternally grateful for anything I get; be it shares, donations, or words of love and support. I promise to post updates and images as needed. Please take care of yourselves, and know that you too, are loved and you deserve to live too.
I love to draw colourful, beautiful black characters and women. I also love to collect soap, erasers, tarot decks, embroider, sing, dance, take pictures of the lovely places around me, and be around my loved ones. I have been drawing for most of my life since I could pick up a pencil, and my ultimate dream is to go to a good art school to become an illustrator and animator, and eventually, pitch my own show, or work for Disney.
I live with my partner, his sibling, and another roommate here in CO. We also have a pet cat named Jeremy. I have been living independently with these roommates since 2018.
As we all know, the current situation has had us all messed up and more often than not, needing more money. I do work, but after paying bills (I live near Denver, for reference), I'm usually not left with much, especially when it comes to getting a hold of a therapist I need and will have to invest in.
Most of my closest friends know I've been getting therapy since July 2020, but have been on and off with it most of my life. I stopped getting therapy as of October 2020 because the services I was being provided on a certain application from two separate counselors were in no way helpful or serving me.
As a black person, I find it beyond difficult to get the help I need when it comes to therapy. I often feel worse, or isolated, when given nonblack, nonfemale therapists to work with, most of who are prejudiced and cannot properly provide me the care I need when I've needed it. The therapists I've been given have been unreliable and incompatible with my needs.
The truth is, I have been suicidal for weeks now. I have plans to attempt suicide. I have attempted to commit suicide a small handful of times throughout my life; especially in the few recent years. I often feel trapped, and like I cannot be helped, but I know this is not true.
On October 10th/11th, I posted a letter on my private social media stating I would take my life. I didn't do it simply because I did not have the time or space alone to do so, and I was finally talked down by my loved ones.
I realize that I am not alone and do not have to face my suffering alone. I have gotten an outpour of support I did not ever, ever anticipate. This alone has made me feel seen, heard, and grateful... but most importantly, willing to give my life another chance.
I am trying to better my life. I want to better my life badly, but I need help. I am asking kindly for your help in gathering funds to see a local black, female therapist I have located in my city & with reasonable rates, and accessibility (I cannot drive and am somewhat disabled, she provides sessions over video chats which is a great help to me). If need be, I can provide more proof of billing as time passes, but sessions are going to be expensive and I need as much help as possible.
I wish to keep living, but I need this therapist, and I need help so I can keep living a healthier life, and so I can recover from what I've been through. This will also be a stepping stone in achieving my dreams.
Please consider donating. Everything here will go solely towards the first few therapy sessions; which will massively increase my quality of life and mental health.
Thank you for reading, I am forever eternally grateful for anything I get; be it shares, donations, or words of love and support. I promise to post updates and images as needed. Please take care of yourselves, and know that you too, are loved and you deserve to live too.
Organizer
Nicole Valadez
Organizer
Aurora, CO