Help Brianna

Hi My Name Is Brianna I Am 21 Years Old And Three Weeks Ago I Went Thru The Most Traumatic And Scariest Experience Of My Life...I Was Shot In The Back And Instantly Paralyzed From The Waste Down... I'm Gonna Tell You My Story To The Best Of My Ability Sorry For Any Repeating Statements From My Fb Post... So This Happen On March 20th As Me And My Fiance Were With A Friend Hanging Out In My Car Listening To Music Right Outside Our Friends House... We Were Having A Conversation And Were Interrupted By A Knock On My Window By A Guy I've Never Seen Before I Got Scared And Didn't Open It I Just Turned To My Fiance To See What I Should Do... As I Was Doing That Our Friend In The Back Recognized The Guy And He Rolled Down His Window And Said Whats Up And Engaged In A Conversation Where The Guy Was Heated About A Previous Situation Since We Were In Front Of Our Friends House The Guy Asked If He Could Get In The Car Not To Disrespect The House... After A Quick Debate Our Friend Soon Agreed To Let Him In...I Couldn't Tell You What Was Said Between One Another But Not Long After It Had Gone Off... I Have Nooo Idea Why Or How The Gun Went Off But It Was Fired Thru The Back Of The Passenger Seat Where I Was Sitting...The Bullet Hit Me In My Back And Was Lodged Right In The Middle Of My Spine Resulting In Me Automatically Not Being Able To Feel My Legs...At This Point I Just Remember Being So Scared The Gun Shot Was So Loud... I Was Told I Screamed And Arched My Back But I Didn't Hear Myself... I Couldn't Hear Anything For A Moment... I Could Just See My Fiance Screaming And Freaking Out As He Got Out The Car To Run To My Side...When He Opened The Door My Leg Just Fell Out And I Remember Looking At It And Realizing I Couldn't Pick It Back Up To Put It Inside... I Think That's When It Hit Me That Something Was Really Wrong... I Just Started Repeating The Serenity Prayer Over And Over And Talking To God Praying He Be With Me... I Was Way Calmer Then I Would  Have Ever Imagined I Would Be In That Situation... My Focus Was Really On My Fiance  He Was Of Course Scared And I Really Wanted Him To Know It Was Going To Be Okay And That I Love Him...I'm So Grateful He Was There I'm Not Sure I Would Have Been As Calm Or Even Alive If He Wasn't... At That Moment He Gave My Body A Reason To Fight And For That I Am So Thankful... The Guy Who Is Responsible Freaked Out And Screamed At My Fiance Not To Call The Cops While He Still Had The Gun In His Hand...My Fiance Didn't Want To Upset The Guy Resulting In Maybe Something Worse Happening But He Had No Choice He Just Screamed At The Guy To Get Out Of Here And Thankfully He Took Off Running That's When My Fiance Started To Call 911...Our Friends Aunt Came Out Soon After And Thankfully Got Her Hand Behind My Back On The Wound...The Cops Took Sooooo Long To Get There But Eventually Got There With The Ambulance Arriving A Little While After... I Remember Hearing My Friends Aunt Try To Whisper To The Cops "She Can't Move Her Legs I Had To Put It Back In The Car" I Was Scared But Didn't Loose Focus I Knew I Had To Stay Calm In Order To Stay Alive... It Hurt So Much When They Moved Me On To The Stretcher And It Felt So Weird Because I Couldn't Feel The Bottom Half Of My Body It  Literally Felt Like I Was Floating... That's When My Eyes Filled Up With Tears My Heart Literally Hurt But I Didn't Break I Knew Something Was Really Wrong And Felt So Much Emotion Inside... But Not Once Did I Cry. The Ambulance Ride Was Scary They Were Moving So Fast And I Just Started Repeating The Serenity Prayer And Saying Prayers To God Over And Over And Over.. I Started Forcing Myself To Say The Prayers Out Loud Because I Knew If I Could Hear Myself Talking  That I Wasn't Dead...I Think This Is The Part That I Play A Lot In My Head... To Not Know If You're Going To Be Alive In A Couple Hours Let Alone A Couple Minutes Is So Hard To Grasp... I Remember Feeling My Eyes Just Wanting To Shut... I Felt Soo Tired I Can't Even Explain..  I Just Kept Fighting It So Hard I Would Open My Eyes As Much As I Could And It Helped To Look More Up. .. When We Got To The Hospital The Doctors Moved Quickly I'm Not Sure Everything They Were Doing But I Know They Were Fighting To Keep Me Alive.. I Had To Get A Scan For Them To See What Was Going On Inside And That's When Thankfully They Saw The Bullet Wasn't In My Stomach And Had Stopped In My Spine... The Doctor Said He'd Never Seen Anything Like It Because The Gun Was So Close To Me When It Went Off It Could Have Hit Soooo Many Worse Spots Or Have Got Stuck In My Stomach Ripping Open My Organs And Causing Internal Bleeding..  All I Could Think Was That God Was On My Side...Even Tho I Couldn't Feel My Legs I Was Beyond Lucky To Be Alive And Those Were My Exact Thoughts At That Moment... One, There Was No Active Bleeding And Two, The Bullet Was In A Safe Spot... The Doctor Explained To Me That The Bullet Couldn't Be Removed Because It Was In Such A Difficult Spot In My Spine... If They Did The Surgery There Would Be A Higher Risk Of Me Being Completely Paralyzed From The Neck Down... I Just Cried And Cried I Was Scared And I Didn't Want This Ugly Thing Stuck Inside Of Me I Wanted It Out But I Knew It Wasn't An Option And It Devastated  Me... I Was In The Hospital For A Couple Days. The First Couple Being The Worst Where I Was Basically Just Screaming Out In Pain...The Nerve Pain I Was Feeling Was Unbearable And Something I'll Never Forget.  I Learned More About My Condition Over The Next Couple Weeks And How Even Tho I Was Currently Paralyzed From The Waist Down There Is Still  H O P E  For Me To Walk Again With Lots Of Therapy... I Was Transferred To A Rehabilitation Center Where I Am Working Hard In Therapy And Re Learning How To Take Care Of Myself And Basically Re Learning How To Do EVERYTHING All Over. And Yeah Everything Is New And Scary And Some Days Are Harder Then Others.. But I Am Trying Soooo Hard To Stay Positive And Get Through This. It Is Honestly The Hardest Thing I've Ever Done... To Look Down At My Legs And Realize I Can't Move Them  Literally Devastates Me And I Think At This Point Is The Hardest Part Of All This... But I Know With My Strong Faith In God And Everyone's Prayers I  Honesty Believe I Can Get Through This... As Much As I Want To Be Able To Just Focus On My Recovery My Injury Has Caused Such A Toll On My Financial Responsibilities And I Am Beyond Stressed Out... If You Know Me You Know How Hard This Is For Me To Even Come Out And Ask For Help... I Am Just Not That Type Of Person  At  All... I Always Stick It Out Even At My Lowest Moments... I Am The Person Who Is Always Trying To Help Other People Even When I'm Struggling... What I Have Is What You Have And Its Always Been Like That.. I'll Share My Only Meal Or Give My Last Dollars To A Friend In Need... I Always Try To Be The Friend You Can Call On No Matter What And You Know I'll Be There For You 1000 Percent Asking Nothing At All In Return...So It Sucks Sooo Much And Brings Tears To My Eyes To Be Sitting Here Asking For Help But I'm Scared And Have Realized There's No Way I Can Do This Alone... I Can't Even Explain How Much $5 Could Help Me At This Point... I Am Truley Sorry To Even Bother Anyone With This Type Of Request But I Thank You From The Bottom Of My Heart In Advance... I Understand Everyone Is Struggling And If You Can't Give Then That Is More Then Okay I Just Ask For Your Prayers That You Really Take A Moment And Ask God To Be With Me And Give Me The Strength To Get Through Another Day And Eventually Walk Again... Thank You So Much For Taking The Time To Read This Post It  Was So Hard For Me To Write Out And Brought Back A Lot Of Hard Emotions... I Am Sorry It Was Long But Really Thankful You Took The Time To Read My Story Thank You And May You All Have A Blessed And Safe Day.
Much Love- Brianna 
Below I Have Added Some Pictures For You Guys To View.

Full View Of The Bullet Wound On My Back. 
Up Close View Of The Bullet Wound. 
Compression Boots I Have To Wear Everynight To  Keep My Feet Straight. 
A Machine That Helps Lift Me Out Of Bed And Put Me In My Wheelchair. 
Using The Machine To Lower Me Down. 
Doing Some Arm Exercises. 
Learning How To Slide Board Into My Wheelchair Instead Of Using The Machine. 

On My Way To The Gym...Always Got To Keep Smiling!!