Homeless and Hurt: Harrison Needs Help

Hello my name is Harrison Marlowe, I also go by the name Mo Marlowe. I am a 31 year old male. On march 18th my girlfriend had come home from a vacation and had kicked me out of the apartment I am renting from her. I had no clue what this was about. She was gone for a little over 2 weeks. When she came back she opened the door and was screaming at me to get out. She was very loud and our neighbors were stepping out and she made me feel like I was harassing her.

And with how aggressive she was verbally yelling to get out or I will call the police so I got out. I thought she needed time to cool down because lately are relationship has been good but we haven’t had sex in a year and 3 months. She has never threaten to call the police on me before. She slammed the door in my face. She made me get out asap. I went to my car and realized I didn’t have my keys wallet and cell phone. I went back to the apartment knocked and went to the balcony and shouted her name. I was ignored. All I wanted was a sweatshirt, keys wallet and my phone. There was a neighbor out side with his agessive dog and told me that his dog will attack me if I don’t leave I told him I live here and pay rent and don’t worry I will leave though , I stated to him I live there and my girlfriend kicked me out and I just wanted my keys and stuff. He didn’t care I felt uncomfortable the way he was comming at me and after 5-10 minutes of knocking I was ignored we have video cameras a ring camera and a back yard camera. I go back to my car and double checked all doors were locked. I sat down on the sidewalk in frount of my car and I waiting there all night. I am just guessing the times because I didn’t have my phone, but I sat from around 8:00pm ish- 8:00am ish. I went back around 8:00am and I knocked for another 30-45 min there was no answer. I went back to my car and sat down on the curb again. While sitting on the curb in ground of my car on the cement I had a panic attack I was shaking for about 15 minutes. It was also freezing as I live by the beach and it’s night time and I’m barely wearing any clothes. Around morning time after string by the curb all night people are up driving there kids to school. And are seeing me just sitting on the curb in an upscale residential neighborhood in Newport Beach. Guessing around 10:00ish the police come. One of the neighbors where I parked my car called the police. I explained to them my situation. I gave them my driver’s license’s number that has proof that I live in Newport Beach when they look wit up. Then they called an abulance becuase one showed up. I told the police if they can just knock on my girlfriends door and try to talk to her so I can go in and get some clothes my keys wallet and cell phone. I told them I have a lease agreement I told them all I need is my phone wallet and keys to survive and I don’t need an ambulance. They told me they were not going to do that and I can leave with the abulance or leave with the police and go to jail because it’s apparently illegal to be homeless in Newport Beach. I obviously had to leave with the abulance. So I went to the hospital and they evaluated me did there mental health assessment and what ever they wanted to do. I found out later that the police reported to the hospital that they found me passed out in the bushes. Idk why they made that lie. When I was not I was sitting on a cement curb in frount of my car completely. I had my dad and my girlfriend down as emergency contacts for me and they called my dad and girlfriend and told them the police found me in the bushes unconscious. I take 1mg of kolotopin for anxiety. The hospital told my dad and girlfriend I was passed out in the bushes. I was completely conscious the whole time. I was sitting on the curb and cooperated with the police and ambulance. The doctors never asked me about how I ended up there. They never asked me for my story. After 1-2 days in the hospital on the er floor I was told I am having a virtual hearing becuase the hospital is trying to put me on 5150. For those who don’t know that’s how they are able to put you into a mental hospital or lock you down for a week or two at there hospital. They didn’t let me attend the court date. Even though I had every right to, . But luckily it didn’t matter I could tell I was not locked down there and the judge did not approve the . I knew I could leave ama. Which means leaving against medical advice. But I knew I was homeless without my keys, wallet and cell phone and I knew the hospital would start feeding me soon other than crackers and juice. So I waited and this is were things start to get weird the hospital starts me on all these medications. I didnt have my phone to look them up but I just took them. I recognized some. But others I didn’t recognize. They ended up being a seizure medication. A bipolar medication when I was never diagnosed with seziers or bipolar disorder.And others I still didn’t know tell this day. So I am taking my medications and the medication they gave me put me into the twilight zone. I was really out of it. I would try to get up and leave and they brought me back to my bed. I told them I didn’t want the medications as the make me feel half asleep. They told me there giving me a medication for nausea witch was not a nausea medication and it put me straight to sleep. And this is were things got weirder and immoral. When I woke up this is where things took a turn and I knew I was some medical experiment and this hospital, had bad doctors. Or what ever I can label it this was wrong. I woke up with a tube down my throat that breathes for me. Imagine being give all this medication not eating much but a couple of crackers and apple juice then being drugged to sleep waking up with a machine that breathes for you. I felt stuck there. The nurse came in and she told the doctor he needs to have the machine removed he is clearly breathing on his own. After 15ish minutes of being very mad the nurse pulled it out. It’s very uncomfortable to have a machine with a tube down your throat that I can feel was breathing for me. I don’t know what medication was giving to me but I should of never ended up getting in this situation in the first place. They told me they gave me a anti-seizure medication I had slowed down my breathing, so I decided to put a tube down my throat to help me breathe. So from now on I made sure not to take any medications I didn’t know. So I don’t wake up like that and also with with a catheter. It was wrong shame on Hoag Hospital in Newport Beach. Mabye if they would listen to my story over the police’s story things didn’t have to go that far. There are two sides to every story the hospital shouldn’t have believed the police over me. I stayed in the hospital, even though it was in this crazy situation I knew at this point I should leave but they had told me they got me a room upstairs and I can order food off a menu. My last meal was actually the 17th and the 20th was my birthday. And they had called my girlfriend and dad. My dad is never there for me if life and he believed that I was found passed out in the bushes and since I have anxiety, he took it as that I was passed out in the bushes and needed to go to a mental hospital I am a tom truck driver and cook I have my life in order and have to issues. I told him it’s not true and he hung up on me clearly he wasn’t going to help me not even on my birthday. So after 3 days with out eating I decided to stay in the hospital. I had to wait march 20-march 21. Believe it or not my girlfriend came and had brought me my phone. It was dead so I couldn’t use it tell later when the nurse charged it. She kept the visit short and I just was begging her to let me come home and explain to me why she kicked my out. She said becuase the apartment wasn’t as clean as she wanted it when it was clean. DShe had no reasonable explanation. On march 21 I got a room and food the food was in soft food I don’t know why but I was able to eat spaghetti and some good food while watching movies. Eating a lot, building up my strength. Anyways I couldn’t believe what had happened and how I feel so far in life. My daily life consisted of riding my bike, cooking good food, spending a lot of time with my cat, skateboarding & looking for jobs as a tow truck driver as I was between jobs. To my girlfriend kicking me out unexpectedly witch lead to to all of this. Now I still didn’t know why my girlfriend kicked me out. It’s unlike her. I have been with her for 4 years she has always been my best friend in life. She visited me again 2 days later and had brought me my iPad. I would ask her why she did this to me and the reasons didn’t make sense that the apartment was a little messy and little things that didn’t make sense. Like I explained to her I was not passed out in the bushes and told her what had happened. I told her they gave me medicine to make me go to sleep and they put a breathing machine down my throat. I told her a lot of the doctors were bad. She believed me. She keept telling me I should just leave and they can’t hold me there but I had no where to go because she still wouldn’t let me come hom After they pulled that breathing machine out. I noticed my right arm where my elbow is couldn’t bend that well on its own and the muscles were getting weak. They had the hospitals physical therapy program work on it, trying to get my arm better, but it wasn’t getting better. It was getting weaker. Also my neck started hiring I was getting to the point where I was unable to lyft my neck up with my own muscles. So I told my girlfriend that I just have about had enough staying at the hospital I’m just getting worse and she told me just get up and leave so I left Ama. Also, I forgot to mention that I had a side effect of the medication I was taking in my feet are really swollen. The hospital got me clothes and I took a Lyft back to my apartment where I live. I talked with my girlfriend. She had told me I could come in and get some pairs of clothes $ my toothbrush, and some things I need like my wallet and my keys toothbrush ect. I showed up she walked me to the door and right before I was going to walk in she caused an issue in the hallway yelling where are your guns empty your pockets. And cussing the neighbors to make me look like a bad guy again . Screaming I don’t want to get shot. I don’t know why’s she was saying things that were ridiculous and cause the neighbors to get worried about her, making me look like I’m the bad guy I emptied my pockets in front of my girlfriend and the neighbors, and I was not in a good situation with the way she was acting an created an the whole seen with my neighbors, making me look like I was the aggressor, and like I said, my girlfriend has been my best friend in life since I’ve known her, and she was never known to act like this. I said well I paid rent give me my rent money back she said no. So I paid for April and may totalling $2,600 witch is $1,300 a month. She told me I can’t come in and she changed her mind. And stood at the door saying I can’t come in. I said please just give me my keys and wallet. She said I don’t know where you wallet is and she gave me my keys. But it turned out another day I came she didn’t know where my wallet was, and I had given it to me. I had a half a tank of gas but no wallet to buy food. I ended up sleeping in my car for two days not eating and just drinking water out of a water fountain at the park. And if my life couldn’t get any worse my arm that had weak muscles never healed. It got dislocated when I was sleeping in my carI felt it pop out of place. It was dislocated . I was like I don’t know how my life couldn’t get any worse I have no wallet I haven’t eating and now my elbow is dislocated. It was painful and I needed it back in place so I went back to the hospital. They wanted to do surgery and I had no choice. So the first doctor put me to sleep and I woke up and it wasn’t fixed he told me it was and after it arguing with him and a couple new X-rays later I meet another surgeon and he seemed smarter and I went under anesthesia again for three hours when the surgery was only intended to be an hour. I woke up in the worst pain I had to get morfine and then oxycodone it still a unbareable amount of pain. They ended up admitting me again and after not eating for 3 days again I am eating as much food as I can. They came and took an xray 24 hours after my surgery. They came in and told me that my elbow is relocated in the right place witch I knew. But they said I have a broken elbow and that during the surgery the surgeon caused a break in my elbow. Now there telling my I can’t take of my sling and wrap for 3-4 weeks. So I leave the hospital after 3 days in there after they fixed and relocated my arm. And I finally got my wallet back after ny girlfriend finally let me in. Apparently she hired a maid and dumped all my stuff out like clothes and everthing I own in the back yard. I can tell the maid put the stuff in bags and my girlfriend put 80% of my stuff in the floor like clean clothes ect. At this time I asked her if she is breaking up with me she said no I told her how frustrating it is that I had to go through all of this if she would of just let me get my keys wallet and phone earlier would of been okay. So I am homeless in my car for a while fast forward to April 7 a little over 3 weeks of being homeless and around 2 weeks living in a van that is a 2002 Honda Odyssey with 409,000 miles. It leaks oil and costs so much money to run and I can tell it’s been on its last leg for a while. Parts keep breaking one another after another. I just needed to replace a starter yesterday. But anways my neck and back was sore I went to a park to lay down on the grass. I got bitten by a spider and there was a lot more fluid and swelling on my right foot. And the past few days got worse and traveled up my leg. I went to the doctor and they said if it gets any worse, I need to go to the emergency room . I feel that it has to do with my blood circulation, but I have been walking miles and miles every day trying to elevate my feet and doing everything I can to get the blood pumping so much just sitting in my car. Yet this issue has been getting worse and it seems keeps getting more and more swollen. It looks like I have to go back to the hospital again. Now I don’t like to ask for money. I like to pull my slef out of hard times by myself. On April 6 I had asked my girlfriend if she is seeing anybody. She told me she had a one night stand and is not sure if she likes the guy. So I got cheated on. She came back to her trip and went to some guys house who she was talking and setting things up behind my back. You know it all kind of makes sense why you threw my clothes out kicked me out why she’s acting like that. I wish I would’ve saw it earlier. I wish she would’ve told me kind of sucks because I still love her as my best friend in life and I even told her I’d still be there for her. But unfortunately, she has no interest on being with me. Now here’s why I really got screwed. Before she left for her vacation I paid her $1,400 for rent that covers all of April. And I had credit with her where I had giving her 1400 for another month covering may. So I had until may. I get money from the food stamp office as well as food stamps and was looking for a job. But now I can’t work. I had my money stolen from me. My girlfriend probably soon to be ex girlfriend witch were still talking about weather we are going to stay together. I tell her all the time she would pay me that money so I can get a room. She cheated on me & lost interest for me I don’t think she lost her love for me but she really hurt me and buried me financially. And my health has taken a huge toll on my life. I have neack problems where I can’t rotate my neack because the muscles are so stiff and they weak and have a hard time holding my head up. People notice I have neckc problems just walking by them in public. My feel are so swollen I will probably be going to the hospital as the doctor said he thinks it a serious condition that can be life threatening. I really hate asking for help. It makes me feel ashamed. I’m so sorry as a man that I let my life fall this hard where I have to go online and as the world for help. Unfortunately, I have no family left for me and my dad does not want to be there for me. I haven’t showered in 2 and a half weeks. I feel so gross. My health is bad and Im paying to god every day for help. Any day now my car will die it’s just about done. I keep replacing part by part by part and it has an oil leak in the mail seal I go through minimum 4 quarts a day. I don’t know what to do. This car with maintenance and oil has sucked all my money out of my pocket. I have never been homeless before. Have always had minimum two months rent ahead of time. I feel heart broken that my girlfriend would do this too me. She occasionally lets me come over to her apartment to take my clothes which she dumped out all over the balcony when they were all clean and organized. She is begging me every day to take our cat we adopted at two months old. He’s always been more of my cat becuase I feed him groom him, and take him to the vet. She says if I don’t take him he will go to the pound. this cat has the sweetest heart me and him are best friends. We watch movies together, cuddle together and spend every minute together. I love this cat with all my heart. It would break his heart to put him in the pound. He doesn’t deserve that and has lived a very luxurious life and is a little more of an outdoor cat than an indoor cat. He is very smart and well trained. He dosent deserve the pound. He deserved his dad. I don’t ask for anything more then a roof over my head and a roof over my cats head my life is falling apart more and more as each day goes by. Anything you donate I will use 100% towards rent and a security deposit for the cheapest room that will allow a cat.

I’m so sorry I have to ask for help but I don’t know what to do. I just want to work but I’m too injured. I swear to God, I will pay you back once I get a job & or I am back on my feet