If not one thing... it's another!

When will things change? We try so hard, but nothing seems to work. As a family of 4 now, and one income... times are tough. I will do without, but I will be damned if my 2 boys will. Having been on maternity leave i have only received 1 full pay check all others have been short. I go back to work in 2 weeks. Until then I have no paychecks coming in to get us through. Bills are due, food for bellies is needed... I am at a loss. So here I am spewing my guts out for HELP! My integrity is shot. My ability to make it without asking for help is done. Now I ask for any help anyone can do. If not for me, for my 2 babies.