Get my life back on track

Hi, my name is Brian and this is something I never thought I’d do. I’ve never asked for help before. It’s not how I’m built. But it’s time I realize I can’t do it alone and reach out and ask for help. I’ve been through so much the last 5-10 years. Death, divorce, and 2 battles with severe Covid (one of which also gave me pneumonia and almost took my life a couple times in the hospital, and kept me at home on oxygen for another 5/6 weeks, & the 2nd time finding a spot on my lung, that thank God after getting scanned turned out to just be scar tissue, nothing worse, praise God.). All of this has caused depression and trauma and anxiety attacks. I am getting the help I need to get better, but the debt from all the hospital time spent and all the doctors visits, and from just trying to make ends meet and get by, have really piled up to a point I am severely overwhelmed. I don’t want to ask for help. I know some people may think less of me, and I understand. But I don’t want to risk losing everything either, and this is why I am reaching out for help. I’m mortified with embarrassment just to do this. But please know that your help and support and prayers are more appreciated than you could ever know. I have done my best my whole life to be kind and helpful and loving to everyone I meet in life. I’ve just really been overwhelmed and I could really use some help to get through this, and get back my life and happiness once again. I just want to be able to breathe again. I’m so overwhelmed. Thank you for your time and consideration and prayers. God bless, and love you all.