Seizure service dog

My name is Joshua, and I am in desperate need of a service animal. Unfortunately insurance no longer assists patients in K-9 companions, so I must find my own ways to obtain a dog and have it trained for my seizures and depression.I’m a student trying to become an X-ray tech then a radiologist someday. I find myself alone quiet often when studying and have seized twice while no one was around and twice while simply reading.
my story begins December 27, 2013 when I came home from my grandparents house my behavior had changed. I was rash in my decisions and had poor decision making skills for some odd reason. I begin to shower and pass out. I’m incoherent and my mother was at a credentials test when I fell. I vomited everything in my system out and then more. There was blood meaning slight tears in my esophagus. My mother came home and found me lying in my bathrobe unconscious. She picked me up and drove me around the city to the emergency room. When I was admitted they first thought it was meningitis, swelling of the spinal cord. They ordered a CT and a spinal tap. I went in for the CT and my mothers jaw dropped at the image. 

my grandfather was an X-ray tech from when he went into the navy at age 18 during Vietnam, until he retired in 2018  he is part of my reason for becoming an X-ray tech. With his lifelong experience, my mother was around and saw many CTs of peoples brains. She knew they had grooves in the images. Mine did not. My brain was flooding with blood. 

my brain was drowning in it’s own blood because of a deformity in my blood vessels called an AVM. The AVM is an arteriovenous malformation, an tangle of blood vessels where the capillaries were tangled and cannot supply the tissue with the correct amount of blood. Mine was so tight and I was so active, that it had bust resulting in a stroke. I lost part of my vision. 

I have been blind in my right peripheral vision for over 5 years now and I still have. It adjusted to reading at my previous speeds. I bump into things on my right side and I am not allowed to drive because of my blindness. Loosing a sense really takes a part of ones ability to function the same away. Some can overcome it, I was just able to get over it. 

In March of the upcoming year, 2014, I was to undergo brain surgery. They cut out and removed the knotted tissues from my brain. Within this process my brain was damaged and scar tissue had formed resulting in a bigger stroke than previous. I have only my front and left view.

I Am now epileptic due to the scar tissue on my brain  I have random seizures and the only way to reduce the risk is anti seizure medications. I can feel when my brain is getting excited. I can feel the neurons fire, but the medication I’m on brings them down. Makes everything dull. I am now depressed from this. It doesn’t only stop my neurons from misfiring, but it keeps me from excitement and the ability to enjoy things. 

when I say I can feel a seizure coming, I get dizzy, all of my vision gets mixed and confused  eventually I blackout, during my blackout, I am seizing quiet harshly ranging from 30 second to 2 minutes. 

im only 20 years old  my surgery happened when I was 14 and my first seizure was at 15. My life had been one giant roller coaster with people judging my on my ability to read. I once was called “di**- brain” in high school for a whole month because these kids said the doctors put his... in there during surgery. It was stupid and I know it made know sense even at the time, but it was hurtful. I took it and never reacted. Right after I had surgery in the 8th grade this girl ran up behind me and smacked me right in the scar covering the plate they implanted after they removed the knot. 

I feel as if having a service dog would solve many of my problems. I fear seizing when I am alone a service dog would be trained to sense when my body begins to seize and perform the correct tasks to keep me safe. A service dog can keep me from feeling depressed because of my medication. Therapy, runs and talking are all great, but running with a friend is more ideal; and sometimes when a depressed person needs someone around, they don’t want to hear how they can make things better. We know, I just wish to be held and guided into a better mood. 

I am asking for so much because of the type of dog and the training I wish to put it through. After my research I have found that a golden doodle would make a great service dog. They are calm and well
mannered and typically easily trained. They make great service animals due to their heightened attentiveness and sensory. The poodle adds cal manners to help with remaining calm in seizure or depressive episodes.
the dog is $4000 and the training is $45,000  through the company willing to work with me on training her. 

many help would be much appreciated. I am trying to earn the money myself, but with having to pay for doctors visits, medications, MRIs, EEGs, and commuting to Phoenix 4 hours any time I need to see my neurologist, it makes saving money difficult especially when you’re a student trying to find a solution for his own and many others problems. 

a dog would simply help me succeed and feel abit better about my life in way words cannot express. I was raised to be a caring and loving person. My mother is an elementary school teacher  before that she was in the army for 13 years and the air force for 7. I was raised with discipline and intelligence. I would love the dog and make sure she is cared for and does her job