Literally help me get back on my feet.

My name is Ricky Kazee and I was going to have a friend write this out for me but she told me to write it myself. So I figured I can explain my situation better than anyone.

July 24th 2023 I hade my right leg amputated due to a rare tumor that usually only effects children. I started to notice the pain roughly three years before it was at its worst. I tried multiple doctors and neither found the real problem. After trying to figure out after two years I went through another year of excruciating pain. The pain was so bad I could not sleep and would sometimes cry it hurt so bad. This was not easy on my girl at the time either. I had enough of the pain and the drinking to deal with the pain had gotten really bad. I decided to go to the Mayo Clinic. The doctors found the tumor and diagnosed me correctly my first visit. I had 3 options but amputation was the only one that would completely remove all of the tumor which had grown and spread. Had the doctors caught it earlier i would have been able to keep my leg.

My life changed overnight. I was lucky enough to have a very supportive girlfriend who supported me through thick and thin. She was truly my best friend or so I thought. Without getting into the messy details she left me in the worst way possible about 5-6 months later. I know found myself completely alone and she was not all to blame but she dropped me. I was left alone and was struggling with my Alcoholism and Addiction and my mental health was at it's worst. I went to rehab for 30+ days and upon getting out I had no long term place to stay. My Mom then took me in a few days later and I've been living with her since. I know people go theough breakups and can move on quickly well I'm not that person. This comes into play because on top of what I am dealing with this was dumped on me at the worst time. I'm not apologizing for how I feel about that. It is a big part of my daily struggle.

As far as work goes when I got out of rehab I still had not gotten my Prostethic leg or any transportation. I still made efforts to make money but none of them ending up working out or I am still trying to find other ways. The fact is I cant afford the lyfts and ubers to take me around all day which my job requires. I'm making a little here and there to cover my phone, storage unit and Child Support I have now begin to pay. (Longer story there). I have 3 amazing children and they have supported me with my sobriety and are the biggest reason besides myself why I still fight to stay here and succeed.

My mental health has not been good at all and I'll be honest at times I did not want to live and came close to death not too long before rehab. I have stayed as strong as possible through the worst period of my life I've had to endure. I remain sober and today marks almost 90 days off of alcohol and my other drug of choice. It's been a rough go and still is but I refuse to give up. It's no longer in me to do so. I have refused to give up and trust me it's harder to do all this while remaining sober. My life has been put on hold and I had a few short term goals I have not been able to achieve because of my financial situation. I should be walking after a month of physical therapy. I never thought I would have to ask for help when I got out of rehab but that is my reality. My main source of income before is no longer available to me through no fault of my own. I wouldn't be doing too bad if I still had that available to me.

This is really hard for me to do at this point in my life because I feel like I've had so much support with fundraising when I found out about my leg. The money I'm asking for will go to help me get a new license, help with daily expenses including food, acquiring a vehicle and helping get started and finding my own place. And possible buying a new dog which was also taken from me through no fault of my own she was intended to be my emotional support animal to help me with my mental health. I understand if you are not willing to donate. I get it. I am really down on my luck and I didn't think losing a leg would affect as many aspects of my life as it has. Thanks for reading this and I am so grateful to those who have been there for me and anyone willing to help. Thank you for taking your time to read this.