Lost, Wife, Job, House, Cats, Legs

Hello, my name is Nathan.. The girl in the photo is my Wife Belinda.. 
Belinda passed away next to me in bed 6 months a go here in Canberra..
We both previously worked in physiotherapy at John James Hospital together and had a beautiful little life together with four cats, two rabbits, two dogs and lost of fish..
After Belinda's passing I had a car accident which saw my ICU at Canberra Hospital for eight days and then now currently as a patient on the orthopedic ward since.. I am in a wheelchair having had suffered extensive injuries right through my lower body. As it stands I am still waiting and hoping soon to be able to walk again once the healing has made the surgeons happy.
It is a struggle everyday, while in an eight day induced coma I lost everything.. 
I lost my house, my animals, all my belongings were donated or sold. I have lost my Wife's wedding ring, her engagement ring, her necklace that sat on her neck with her birthstone that she wore in every photo is gone..
The little bear in the photo is named Love Bear, he is all I have left of Belinda.. 
Love Bear was something Belinda gave me on Valentines Day who I've slept with every single day since.. I used to have to have atleast some part of my body touching Belinda when I went to sleep so I knew she was there.. My little bear is an extension of her so thus.. He is my most important thing I have left.
Another thing is two of my cats were placed into foster care and two were taken to the pound with the rest of my animals.. 
Annie is my cat Anniversary who my Wife bought for me on our first Anniversary, I adore her she's lovely.
Holly is Belinda's cat who I bought for her to be her little girl that she absolutley adored.. Holly was with Annie in foster care who I was hoping of one day being reunited with..
As it turns out in the midst of my becoming more and more sad and struggling day in and day out tryng anything to just get through the days and look for little one percent positives.. I was told this past Friday that the foster carer who was ooking after my kittens has lost Holly.. The last and a huge part of my Wife she has lost.. 
I am nowadays on Centrelink having been assisted with this through social work within the hospital which as it turns out is $300 p/w.. rent in the ACT begins at about $375 p/w
With my Wife and the lovely home we had together and working at Calvary John James our annual income was about $180,000.. now being on $300 I feel awful that I was so spoilt but now I look at the life I have now and that upon leaving hospital I can't even afford somewhere to go I am extremely scaredabout what the future holds..
On top of not being able to walk, 
On top of missing my cats and wanting Holly back and praying she'll be found,
On top of losing absolutely everything,
On top my Wifes superannuation and estate having much much more debt than assests,
On top of through the debt and her stress because she handled everything to protect me from negativity and stress she agreed to a loan with her ex husband who is truly evil.. With this loan which I agreed to sign due to my Wife being upset about her debt and wanting to protect her.. I'm being sued by this man for $153,000 for the loan plus interest!!!
I don't know what to do????? 
I don't have any money, I've already lost everything.. I lost my best friend!!!!
It's so hard on a day to day.. I have no family and no friends as sad as that may sound. Belinda and I's life revolved around each other.. I loved her more than words could ever describe.. I miss her so much.. I have all my personality and my heart to care about things but it's been broken and keeps getting stepped on over and over.. 
Any little glimmer of hope to just be able to walk again soon or stand and then maybe be able to live somewhere where I could greive properly and be with my remaining two cats even though now I only have one.. 
If anyone out there can think of anything to help me please.. I've never been so scared and desperate in my life.. I hurt.. The nurses here in the hospital, the psychologist who I see, different people who I've known for awhile I latch on to because I need to talk and I have so much running through my mind everyday..
Finacially lately has been huge due to my wanting to just leave the hospital as I just want my own space so I can just be and sit, and I was hoping with both Holly and Annie and Love Bear.. But even just Annie and Love Bear.. I just want to breathe and be peaceful not having to have to worry every second of the day..
I'll leave it there for now.. 
I write everyday here, I talk all the time as soon as anyone engages me and I apologise for that.. I'm a good person and I just want help.. I want hope.. I feel hopeless..
Thank you so kindly to anyone who reads my story.. Anything being able to verbalise and talk about things is always a help if for nothing else mentally and it's very much the equal of the physical pain I'm in everyday aswell..
Kindly
Nathan