Make Me a Man!

Hi!
Let's see... I like plants and animals, Dungeons and Dragons, writing and drawing, peanut butter and nutella, friends and family, this and that.  I love culture and language a little too much for my own good.  I become easily obsessed with nerdy topics of interest such as OMG ARE THOSE THE AVENGERS EEEK!!!

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*dies*

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...I'm okay.  Really.  Just a mild heart attack.

I have too many dreams.  Travel the world, teach English as a second language, write YA novels, be a professional prop and costume maker, make an indie gaming company, be a concept artist, make my own tabletop games, but I can't help but find that one thing is truly inhibiting me from being -truly- happy.

I'm Randy.

But that's not my name.

My name is Rebekah. But that's not who I am.

I am a ftm/genderqueer 22-year-old college student, dreaming of the world stolen from me at birth.

The hardest part is, when you look at me, I'm the least likely person you would expect being transgender.  I have extremely accentuated curves and my demeanor is effeminate.

I feel like a lie to both the cis and trans* communities, like I don't belong anywhere. I can't fall in love. I can't afford to because of the pain it causes me, even though I hopelessly try.
Because I'm a super-smart romantic like that.
x_x

Every time I introduce myself I cringe inside.  "Hi, my name is..."  I just want to live a fullfilling, happy life.  Feel safe to use the restroom, feel safe in my community where I live, feel free to be just another person.

I'm not usually one for asking for help, but I am desperate.

Please give me the opportunity to live, to love, to be happy as every human has the right to, and I will cherish every moment.

EVERY DONATION COUNTS.  It may not seem like much, but when I see $201 instead of $200, it means that there's just one more person that cares for me out there, which lifts my spirits like you would not imagine. It gives me a sense of inner significance, like I mean something to the world, that my happiness is worth investing in.

I truly appreciate each and every one of you reading this. Whether you donate or not, I welcome prayers, blessings, wishes, and all no matter your creed. Thank you for your help!

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Video updates coming soon!

Reward levels being updated due to lack of resources.  Rest assured that every donation will not go unthanked in any way possible!  These will include dedications in my future vlog, copies of my artwork, handmade crafts or soaps, etc.

View some of my artwork here: on my (out of date) DeviantArt.

Follow me on youtube to see my updates, announcements, and transitioning progress!  Coming soon!

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UPDATES!!!


-Goal amount has been altered since I have decided to investigate a more local plastic surgeon.  It is only an estimate for the time being.  More specific goals will be made clear after consultation.

-July 8th, 2014- I went to my first endocrinology appointment!  Thank you to all of my donors that helped pay for the appointment.  Although the bill was $100 more than was donated, the funds helped me to achieve this groundbreaking moment and still have some money for returning to school, not to mention pay up front which lowered my bill from $478.00 to $286.80.  Phew!









-July 12th, 2014- I recieved my first testosterone shot!!  It's a low dose, but every bit counts.  Slow and steady wins the race!

-July 28th, 2014- I recieved a bill from the endocrinologists for my bloodwork which was not included in the preliminary bill.  This bloodwork was required to test if I had PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) or thyroid problems (it is very likely I have one or the other) which would be pertinent information when adjusting my T doses in the future.  The total amount is $412.20.  Please share this link with your friends.  I need all of the help I can get!  Ramen is really getting old, let me tell you.  o_o  I will be contacting them tomorrow, on the 29th, to discuss financing options.

-I am working to get a free consultation to a trans*-friendly plastic surgeon for breast reduction or a double mastectomy!  Did you hear that?  FREE.