Money for psychiatric care.

Hey its Jacqueline. I've been suffering for over a decade now with psychotic depression, i've had a previous diagnosis of Bipolar 2 but recently got a differential diagnosis for Psychotic Depression, alongside CPTSD. My condition has degraded severely as of recent and I've been struggling to afford support for the psychiatric care I need to overcome it and my condition has seemingly resisted most forms of treatment, I've recently been suffering thoughts of suicide and constant anhedonia and I am so scared of everything, I don't want to let myself go, I want to be here, loving life, I'm so scared. Please help me. I need 450 up front for 2 consultations.