Help move out to a safer environment

Hello. It's been a while since an update as I was struggling for survival as well as dealing with my deteriorating mental health due to the situation I'm in, but with a heavy heart I wanted to write on how things are now - and this time without a filter. Previously I was afraid that people in my life can potentially come across this GoFundMe page, but now that I don't have to worry about it - and as I still find myself grasping at straws - I would like to make a honest breakdown of things that have been happening. Unfortunately I am still in need for funds for moving out as my house has taken a turn for the worse. While I was able to get a job, keeping up with expenses is dragging me down financially as I am not able to save or make enough money for renting an apartment. I'm still in a very abusive situation with terrible conditions and there is no one I can turns to near me that could help. I also don't own a car so I rely solely on the limited public transport and stores are not within a walking distance from me. Here are the highlights of what I have been struggling with these past year and some:

The water heater broke for the entire month of December which means I've been going on without hot water with nowhere to go to use a hot shower and having to take cold showers only on some of the coldest days of the year.

As of few months there has been problems with rat infestation too, causing me to lose food and keep a careful eye over ingredients.

I share the house with two drug addicted, abusive and irresponsible roommates

Said roommates are irresponsible to a threatening degree where they previously allowed a kitten i was taking care of to be attacked and killed by a dog during my absence

Their dog is not being let out by them and in result had been defecating all over the house. Feces were found inside a house during the highest temperatures outside without my knowledge or realization and no one would be cleaning it for hours on end.

There is no space for me to preserve my own food leading to me skipping meals and leading to malnutrition

Wooden floorboards around the house had previously broken, leaving giant holes in the floor of my bedroom that allow cold and humidity into it.

The house is in a very bad condition as it was an old house, it has a terrible foundation that is crumbling overtime to the point it has caused many of the appliances in my house to break down, some with no ways of fixing it without it breaking again soon. Neither do me or my roommates own the house, as the idea is meant to be passed down to one of us, however that isn’t the case. The house actually belongs to my estranged father who is in debt. That means that the house is at risk of being confiscated by the government at any moment, leaving me homeless with no way to gain the house back.

I have no time or access to the doctor while suffering from terrible back pains for months, as I am really overworked from my current job.

The critical circumstances, physical and mental pressure and distress as well as no support system has led to many depressive and drastic thoughts. There is no way for me to get better until I can find a stable environment for myself.

I’ve had two previous arrangements made to move out but unfortunately both times had completely fallen through so I’m still at this house with very little options to leave. It’s been devastating to me to know that the other options I’ve had were taken away from me and I’m still here so isolated in this horrible place.

The current plan is to find someone who is looking for a roommate with enough space for myself to sustain, or live completely by myself in an apartment. I also am looking at getting a different job, hopefully close to where I plan on moving to.

The costs this gfm is meant to cover is for packing, a moving truck, the first couple of months for rent/bills/groceries into the new place, and a plane ticket/passport as an absolute last resort I will be moving in with some international friends. If the last case scenario happens then the costs will cover a storage room as I wouldn’t be able to bring too many things overseas.

Below is the previous explanation when I first started this gfm:

Hi, I'm Andrew and I've been struggling a lot with the current home I reside in. As of now, I cannot confine to the internet exactly the living situation I'm currently in but I can give away it's not ideal in any way.

Some notes are that I live in a very old home which forces me to constantly have fans or heaters on for it can retain nothing and often feels worse inside than it does outside with no insulation. It's slowly breaking and making parts of the house unusable and we cannot afford to even fix such things since it's fundamentally the house that needs to be rebuilt instead of being fixed. Living in this house was barely manageable under the struggle of the past winters, where I had resorted to staying at other places for a little while instead of being able to bear it at my own home.

While those things make it a bit harder to live, it's been more manageable than what else goes on in the house. More often than not, the only comfort in my house is my room and even that is being compromised for there's nowhere else to go to for any peace of mind. Technically, I don't have much privacy in my room for its use need to get to other rooms in the house, but it's also a matter of not knowing when or whose in my house at points when either I've just woken up or been awake for a couple of hours.

There have been multiple cases I cannot go into detail about that's been drastically and rapidly declining my mental health. I'm extremely isolated in this house and don't have anyone that I could reach out to aside from internet friends whenever an issue arises, and feel as though I'm not wanted here. It's been especially harsh during the entirety of this year which I foolishly hoped things would be better compared to last year but now since I'm struggling to even recover physically because of how bad my mental state is and money being inconsistent at best there's nothing I can do except keep working through commissions as I have been doing previously. It all feels as though I'm trapped within a well that's still filled with water but I can't climb out. I cannot afford to buy anything to help out my situation, much less barely able to buy dinner with some snacks to just get by.

With all that said, the money through this gofundme will be towards funding me being able to move out as there are friends who are looking for a place and the best case scenario is that I would be able to move in alongside with them. They are out of state so this is taking into consideration of plane tickets, moving trucks, the bills in the beginning so then I can find a job over there, groceries and the essentials that might have to be replaced when the move is made. Not only that but if that plan falls through, then the money will be used to get a passport and move out of the country and reside with a different group of friends where I'll either decide to stay there or be able to pick myself back up and move back to my country somewhere else. I've checked the prices for these and the second plan is far more expensive but anything is appreciated.

While the situation is worse than what I've mentioned earlier, it's hard for me to disclose much without compromising myself in the process so if you have any questions going further detailed about it then I might not answer them. It has taken a lot to even say some of the things that have happened to a close-knit few of my friends already and they have told me that my living conditions are unlivable and should try to get out as soon as I can. Thank you to whoever was able to read all this far and even a bigger thank you to those willing to donate.

If you are seeking to gain something from donating to me here are my commissions where I'll make a drawing for you in compensation for money. If you donate through here I won't see it as commission and just as a donation without refunding you for this is for an emergency.