
Elder LGBTQ Widow Denied SSI Spousal Benefits
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Desperate Senior Creative Elder Choices.
Desperate and serious - When all else fails. . . What to do, what to do?
Monday 08.15.22
I’m so done. Nothing is working. I have good interviews don’t get the job, waiting for letter that auto insurance was canceled, no fuel to get anywhere anyway, no money for groceries or anything else. The isolation is unbearable. The other insurance, Mr. Ron Max, has been collecting fee$ via auto payments after they were told to STOP in March/April to the tune of over $2000! Ripped off by auto mechanic, Tyres’s Auto, at the first of the year, for over $2000; and I don’t believe they did ANY work on the Jeep. I’m tired of being taken advantage of, tired of being hungry and waiting for the knock at the door to be put out.
Why? Why is all this happening? Is it hateful scared subhumans. People at Social Security got my application, they didn’t like the lesbian factor, the fact that MY WIFE died, they believe two women shouldn’t be together and deny my SSI survivor benefits. During all of this “Karen’s” with their sad pitiful lives faking orgasms, hating sex fake it for their husbands (suffering from LPS aka Lost Pu$$y Spirit) lie about my dog, my service dog for my PTSD, and he gets taken away by another hater running Baltimore County Animal Services (since 1987, what’s that about?) when just the threat of taking my beloved dog Parker ignites my PTSD like never before rendering me unable to function with day-to-day tasks; Specifically trying to get my Social Security benefits through appeal. Top this off with the pipe burst on the top that floods the lower 2 floors of my home ruins everything. The second Karen, a Ms. Jane Burton, a REALTOR, who should and does know better But believes her rights Trump everyone else’s, decides she can walk her dog illegally off leash, and on our private property, lies and says my dog attacked hers. Then round 2 with the hater at animal services, Mr. Smith, Has my dog removed I am in tears just writing this. I was going to keep going after being put up at a extended stay but couldn’t stay there without Parker. The insurance company did zero repairs on the house, I saw zero for all the property that was lost from the flood/water damage. No help, no family, no living children, it was just me and Sydney. Since Syd died I’ve been alone, completely alone, not by choice.. And here I am. If I throw in the towel them in the same position. I am exhausted my resources, and I am physically weak and exhausted. I don’t know what else to do. I give . . .
I have not been able to find any legal help, not for the civil suits to get my Service dog Parker back, or to help me with Social Security Survivor benefits that I was denied, lawyers don’t respond to calls or emails, and the youngsters now working at LGBTI organizations are clueless and don’t realize how hard we Elders worked to get the rights we do/did have that are slowly but surely being stripped away. A couple of lawyers that did say they would help, failed to tell me they decided to drop the case, and worse yet they did nothing letting critical time lapse, missing deadlines for filing motions in court. I am out of legal options, worn out, hungry.
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Fundraiser is not going so well. It’s really hard to do this on your own, putting yourself out there, especially in the worst of times, during life crisis & trauma on top of more crises & trauma, emotions raw, bare boned and naked.
I don’t know how I’m making it to the interview tomorrow . . .
It’s never simple with me, and I accept that, the rare, the long shot, those events very unlikely to happen to the average person, stuff you really can’t make up really does happen to some of us, repeatedly.
I have excellent coping, critical thinking & problem solving skills, and I learned to embrace change back when I was a child. It’s the life threatening traumatic events, the situations that have you as scared and terrified as you will ever be, that wreak havoc on and change us on every level. The body never forgets, no matter how deep the mind may try to tuck trauma away it cannot. Try it and it will derail your life, it will present later in addictions, maladaptive behaviors, A downward spiral where you will find yourself in day-to-day survival mode versus thriving mode.
This is not a virtual event. There is no “pause”, no option to “watch later “. Life occurs in real time, now, as events actually occur. The trauma and crisis others experience is not recorded live for you and your friends later viewing party. A shattering life is not for “your viewing pleasure “; let us hope this isn’t how you get any pleasure whatsoever. Whether you log off or not, the knock at the door still comes, and those who have done their best to do the right thing, to help others, to stay on a straight and narrow path, lose everything they’ve worked hard for, everything they have gained in life, their beloved pets taken from them, as they are left penniless, hopeless, with no place to go. How do you expect a person to maintain any integrity, kindness, willingness to help others, and not revert to illegal means of survival when hope is lost and they are hungry?
Not everybody has “family” and even those that do fine family may not help them.
“Really, it can’t be that bad Ashly”, you say. Well, let me count the ways. Better still I’ll add up the tally.
Did I mention the Fundraiser is not going so well?
I need $2000 yesterday, to keep and get my checking account out of the minus, pay mobile phone (could be turned off any moment), pay auto insurance (was extended to tomorrow if not paid I get canceled, and no more car), and I seriously need to get some groceries (I really feel the effects, and I’m very weak).
So, here’s the tally:
Bank/Checking account = -$600 I need to keep a minimum of $1000 to cover monthly automatic payments which will go down once I’m out of this house. I need $1600
Insurance, State Farm auto/home/personal property = $475
For past due and rapidly approaching next payment, otherwise I get canceled and then I have no car; to go along with no home, no possessions, no pets. . . And I have a perfect driving record, actually there is no record. I’ve never had a moving violation, never had a ticket (other than parking ticket), never had an accident that was my fault. And I had a CDL (commercial drivers license) for just over 30 years.
Auto Repairs need to get finished on 2005 Jeep Liberty = approx. $2000
For a rear rod arm that Tyres’s Auto replaced once and refused to honor recent warranty expiration, discount, or give me 2 weeks to pay $235 of a bill that totaled over $2000. They essentially held my car for ransom for over a week. Apparently Tyres Auto was sold again, and customers were not notified. I went in there and as my luck has been running there was a “Karen” behind the desk arguing with me telling me that I was not a long time customer; I/we have been using Tyres’s Auto for decades. I actually followed Mike Tyre from Brentwood Auto after he and his partner split up. So I don’t even know if they did the work they charged me over two grand for, but I need to get the repairs complete and that includes new tires
Veterinarian = $270 - $550 I have to put my cat Little Zelda down. She went downhill really fast after they took my Parker away. Cody Cat fell into a heartbreaking depression (he’s actually 1 year older than Z) when they took Parker, they were very close, always together even slept together. It hurts my heart so bad to even write this, I’m reduced to tears. . . Getting Darling Nikki was just as therapeutic for Cody Cat and Little Zelda as it was for me, but it’s still not the same (I want MY Parker Back! And I need a lawyer now for civil suits). Darling Nikki is about due for a checkup.
BGE = $1300 I’ve applied for energy assistance as well as for every other type of assistance to No avail. As I’ve stated previously I have, in the last year alone, applied three times online and once in person for assistance, and I have yet to hear a thing from social services. BGE has called stating they will be turning my gas and electric off. I wait. I just can’t imagine how bad it would be, with everything else that’s occurring, to have no electric in this heat. Energy assistance would at least pay most of this down, which I have to do, if I ever want electric in any other place I might live, other than my car.
Internet, currently turned off = $140 I’m doing everything with my phone which is also due to be turned off anytime, and it’s my only lifeline.
Mobile phone = approx $120 for past and quickly upcoming payments due. Since I’m about to be homeless I need to pay this off and just upgrade my phone service to unlimited, which I thought I had, and then find a mobile Internet provider.
Storage units, 2 = $500
Gas/Fuel = $10- $80
I’m trapped in this house, if I leave in my vehicle I must head straight to the gas station.
I’m supposed to have an interview tomorrow and I do not have the fuel to get there.
I was given a gift certificate to get my hair done and I have not been able to schedule that appointment because I cannot get there.
Sometimes I feel like I’m being held hostage I can’t escape. I haven’t even gotten into how all of this, combined with Social Isolation (no family, friends dead), PTSD/CPTSD, and ADHD, effects day to day functioning (It’s not pretty and it’s not good by any means).
Also, I haven’t included the prescriptions and medications that I need, don’t have, and don’t have the money for.
So we’re up to about $6550. I haven’t even gotten to the prescriptions and medications that I need I don’t have. And there’s other things that I just can’t think of at the moment; stress has that effect.
I’m tired of being hungry. Last time I was on a scale I was 86 pounds, and that’s terrifying. I normally weigh 112-117lbs. I look horrible and I’m really self-conscious of my weight. I need to buy food for me and the pets. I take a big very big risk just mentioning my pets, because the misogynistic hater, running Baltimore County Animal Services since 1987, would love nothing more than to take any pet I might ever own, cat or dog, away from me.
And I don’t know how much longer I can take the stress of waiting for that knock at the door to be put out and to lose whatever I have in this house.
I am employable, always willing to work, and if I had a place to live stuff that’s in the house would go there. I could be selling the stuff in storage and those payments would go away.
There are a few of you that have been so incredibly generous, And I do not have enough words to express how grateful I am to you all (I’m still working on thank you cards). But know this, I do not forget, I am a pretty good friend to have, I will always be there for you, and I will always have your back. Never hesitate to call me no matter what is going on in my life.
I’ll touch on those of you who run from the pain and suffering of others as if it didn’t exist it later. Those of you who were supposed to be friends who disappeared like smoke, it’s OK, and again, I do not forget. If you can’t even be there for moral support I am not your go to resource anymore.
It is said that “people reveal themselves through their actions”. To that I add, people reveal themselves through their inaction, and when they disappear.
Unfortunately, at this very moment, I am going in the beginning phase of caffeine, nicotine, & sugar withdrawal. And I have to tell you, it’s as bad as if not worse than withdrawal from any other drug. What I wouldn’t do for a couple of cans of yellow tropical Red Bull, some rolling tobacco, some chocolate, and fuel for the car at this very moment. I could be the cheapest of whores right about now, just to make it stop, so I can carry on, get ready, and make it to the interview tomorrow.
All I’m asking is that you Please share this fundraiser link, it’s more important than you might think! No contribution too small, every little bit helps (and won’t be forgotten) - https://gofund.me/51e95a7c
My YouTube channel emergency fundraiser playlist of pertinent videos that relate to my situation. Please like maybe even subscribe so I know that people are seeing what I’m posting because it seems like nobody is seeing or sharing my link, I know some people said they have but are clueless when I talk to them about it. - https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLEoI8FTT8YyCqHKhNokPUgGJi9E4_-6ki
Link to some of the stuff I’m selling on OfferUp - https://offerup.co/RepOIGxZorb
My website that I am behind on updating ( both addresses go to the same place) -
www.180adt.com
or
Www.AshlyAlexander.com
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Please share a link to my fundraiser -
https://gofund.me/51e95a7c
Stuff I’m selling on OfferUp - https://offerup.co/zWCvCfQQisb
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08.07.22 So the Internet was shut down I have no access except with my phone. As with everything else, I have applied for every type of possible “assistance” three times online in the last year alone, and one time in person, filling out a hard copy of the application at the Drumcastle location, for everything snap/food, energy assistance, emergency cash, Internet and phone assistance and have NOT heard a thing! I also didn’t see a dime of any stimulus money when that was given out. Being denied my Social Security spouse benefits, and lying f-ing Karen’s & the Carl at Baltimore County animal services taking away my beloved sweet service dog Parker is a big F-you from this society some of us are stuck in. So, my phone is next, if a few days go by without an update here you’ll know why.
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Ideally needs place to stay for as little as three month’s or 10-12+ months; while she sells her belongings in storage.. Needs a Pick up truck or work van, 1996 to 2006, all wheel drive or 4 x 4; For mobile tiny home for her and her PTSD service dog. Has a 2005 jeep liberty that needs work finished and tires (approx $1500-$2000/as is value approx $6000). Will do a trade?
Please share this fundraiser link and contribute if you can - https://gofund.me/51e95a7c
OfferUp - https://offerup.co/RepOIGxZorb
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Waiting for a knock at the door to be put out , and locked out. Alone since widowed 10/2017, no family, small 5’ 1”, 90 lb, Senior cannot move belongs by herself, and has no funds to hire movers. Physically impossible for any one person to do. Was supposed to be OUT 10 days ago! Waiting for knock on the door to be put out, locked out, and homeless. ALL personal property not removed will become the banks.
Man! Get me outta here!! Now experiencing more harassment by yet other local “Karen’s” since Ring Video security system cameras were removed (it’s for sale); it wasn’t enough for these sad ass frustrated half-women to outright lie and have dear sweet Service Dog, Parker (for severe & debilitating CPTSD/PTSD) unjustly taken from me, removed from his home where he THRIVED, and couldn’t be more loved. everything stopped the day they took that dog, Parker was all I had. My life since that day has been in a constant state of “Fight or Flight” or recovering from the PTSD Response.
If you live nearby (Towson, MD) and can help pack/move, have a truck/van, please contact Ashly. Ideally a small rental box truck parked out front for a few days, or until the knock at the door, would be a lifesaver. Yet another reason donations are desperately needed!
Continue reading for updates. The following links provide more information:
Video updates and videos related to this specific situation -
Personal Website, Trying to update backstory -
www.180adt.com
Every $10 adds up! Please donate what you can. Sharing the link for this fundraiser helps more than you could imagine, especially if you add a few compelling words about the situation.
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Just caught A local Karen creeping around my patio, stretching her neck up face practically on my deck, f-ing with my puppy Darling Nikki as she snoops around!!!!
They know my security system has been removed (leaves me to think they’re suicidal at this point). Didn’t wanna point it out, didn’t wanna put ideas in anybody’s heads, but I’m taking an Awfully big risk putting all this out there. It’s not hard to find me, and this does not help my CPTSD/PTSD in the least. Nope! Now I’m on freaking HIGH ALERT. . .
PLEASE share Funraiser link, and if you can maybe say something compelling to get others to share even donate five or 10 bucks before something really bad happens . . And again, I have no intentions of it EVER being me who gets hurt; and now I got more freaking idiot Karen’s creeping around my f-king house, sticking their faces in my windows!
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Elder Widow Denied SSI Spousal Survivor Benefits, service dog for CPTSD/PTSD remove by subhumans causing serious negative effects on daily functioning (task completion), home foreclosure due to denied spousal benefits. Was supposed to be out of property by June 14, 2022 (four days ago). Seriously underweight, small female cannot lift very much. No living family, no living children, closest friends have died, the isolation near inhumane.
Main goal is/was to have our stuff out of home so as not to lose the more meaningful things, possessions, that we had intentionally decided to keep, moved into storage. I had a cash for keys agreement, but since I passed the 14th date to be out I might have blown it. It’s nightmare situation and I have to pay for the storage units . . .
I am just one small woman alone trying to do the best she can. This could be happening to you, or your mother, your daughter. . . So to the men/women out there, this could be happening to YOUR wife after you pass away. She gets zero in the benefits that you’ve paid into your entire life. Every widow I have talked to depends on those survivor benefits, and have said they would be in my exact situation had benefits been denied them. The SSI survivor benefits usually cover the mortgage or rent for the surging spouse, which was what I was depending on (it actually was part of our financial retirement plan).
I am a physical, emotional, and psychological wreck with PTSD & ADHD. It really is a horrible combination. I’m shaky, I wake up shaky, heaven help I hear an odd noise at night, or day, doesn’t matter, I’ll hit the deck with an unexpected knock at the door. So easily distracted with the ADHD when I’m not dealing with the fight/flight response, It’s so bad I can’t keep a thought in the middle of a task, trying to move things around the house is killing my body (then there are the physical conditions that can be pretty painful or leave me flat on my back for weeks).
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I apologize to those of you who expressed an annoyance with my sending you an update. I apologize that my trauma and personal all time worst life crisis has been an irruption for you in anyway. Just block me. I don’t have Facebook, F Suckerberg (read on). I just don’t think this fundraiser is getting shared or going to some of my contacts. It really is more critical for people to share than you could imagine, and maybe say something compelling about why others should donate if they can and share; every $10 adds up. You don’t know how much I appreciate this, and the support.
I know better than anybody how hard times are for everyone. I lost my best friend, my partner, my spouse, and every other friend that was close to me, most before Covid.
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This is so very hard to do, writing the situation, the story, the emotions, bare boned and naked, then having to ask others for help.
Asking is so very hard for me. Actually, it is the single hardest thing for me to do, but I'm thinking that if this can help someone else all the better. I desperately need to get my stuff out of the house and stored someplace. I am so freaked, and shaky. Sharing the link to this fundraiser really does help
I'm trying to update and give back story and events, including the impact my PTSD (past deadly stalkers) and ADHD (previously under control) on overall daily functioning, both l ignited like never before, after my service dog, Parker, was unjustly taken thanks to 2 Karen's and a Ken. Grief on top of grief.
It's been impossible trying to find legal rep for getting my SSI Survivor Benefits; they only make like $600 for SSI cases, and no one is doing their jobs these days. They just pass the buck. I have been through agency after agency, from local government to nonprofit, and back again for the last three years, and it's been documented. Bias has no place in any "civil service" position and should be cause for immediate termination. You don't have to like a thing about me, just do your job, keep your emotions and religious beliefs in check. I will do the same.
Monday really knocked me back, messed me up bad in so many ways, still is and I'm feeling worse than ever. And then there is the fact that I am so alone, I have no one, Parker was all I had, and despite the devastation of losing Sydney, with my Parker I could function, he kept the PTSD at bay, helped me get up when my back had me down, he danced with me, slept with me and his cat, and I had him to talk to. I could have laid down and died next to Syd, if not for that dog, The isolation became torcher when subhumans had him from me. I spent 10-11 months in a constant state of fight/flight (also documented by therapist, videos, neighbors, etc.) and had to get a dog, puppy to train (don't do if you're over 40, unless it's for therapeutic value), and still struggle. I do not want another person to go through what I have with Parker. I haven't named names yet, but it is ALL public record, so in due time . . . .
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06.10.22 I really don't know how I'm going to get this done without an army of people and a large space to put stuff in. The units I have really need to be organized and I cannot do it myself because of my physical limitations. I need the shelves from house to storage to do it. Thankfully we/they got a lot out, at least 1/3, and I need sooo much help, all kinds of help. If I had the money, I could have got the 1 drive in unit they happened to have at the storage place, it's large enough for a trailer, and it would make unloading easier. Then I'd consolidate and organize. But again, I cannot do it alone. I need money to hire/pay help. I'm still applying of jobs. Meanwhile, the bank can come in anytime from the 14th on. I really need a place to stay, with my dog. I'm going to have to put the cat Little Zelda down. Cody Cat is older, and I doubt he can take loosing Little Z, especially after he lost Parker; now I'm crying. This is so hard, and I am just freaked. Please share and reshare.
AA
06.10.22 Subhumans, they are everywhere . . .
People Got a Lot of Nerve
How does it elevate you to take advantage of others when they are experiencing crisis? Obviously, you have no trouble sleeping with or looking at yourself in the mirror. Does it provide some ultimate pleasure lacking in your life? Does it build some whack sort of confidence, or make you feel special in what must be a miserable tiny little life? Is your spouse/partner proud of you, if you have one? How about your children? Are you teaching them how to take advantage and get over on others when they need help the most? But God does forgive all for the asking right? True that.
I hate to be the one to inform you, God does indeed forgive all for the asking, no matter the retched deed however, Karma keeps a different type of tally.
Your fatal flaw is your faulty thinking, which really lacks depth and forethought, not to mention experience. And your narcissistic sense of entitlement, where that comes from is deep within your own head. No one in your life thinks of you the way you fancy yourself. Many people want nothing to do with you, as you are so much more transparent than you could imagine. A fragmented subhuman, too weak to be true to self, missing out on a fulfilled life, with repressed desires and tendencies that are impossible to completely repress, lacking the personal constitution to completely, or even in part, change your life, so you never move forward much less grow. Do you even know what is meant by personal constitution?
Let me give you a few pointers. First of all, before you fu@k with anyone, anyone at all, ask yourself, “Does this person have anything to lose”? I mean really loose, beyond the material or monetary that you are after. I hope I’m not using words too big for your comprehension. Hopefully you have a dictionary somewhere and can find it. Because if they have nothing to lose you are in for a beat down, not necessarily immediate, just know it is coming. You’ll be surprised, cry foul, blame them, play the victim, and want a pity party for yourself, but you will be exposed, to all, for now and forever. Know it.
Because you think so highly of yourself, and have for so long, you’ve come to believe that you are much smarter than you actually are. There’s that faulty thinking of yours at work. In reality, others outside of that sad close circle of yours, see right through you. They keep their distance, write you off, or watch you like a hawk if they must share space (which is infrequent if at all). It must suck to be you. No real control in or over your life, lacking personal awareness, living behind that mask you carry. It must get heavy, never being able to put it down.
Ashly
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Comcast Xfinity was fabulous. Best customer support ever! They’re giving me until May 24th to come up with phone payment, and they actually turned my Internet back! Need $1750 to reach 48 hour goal. PLEASE SHARE
I'm trying to update and give back story and events, including the impact my PTSD (past deadly stalkers) and ADHD (previously under control) on overall daily functioning, both l ignited like never before, after my service dog, Parker, was unjustly taken thanks to 2 Karen's and a Ken. Grief on top of grief.
It's been impossible trying to find legal rep for getting my SSI Survivor Benefits; they only make like $600 for SSI cases, and no one is doing their jobs these days. They just pass the buck. I have been through agency after agency, from local government to nonprofit, and back again for the last three years, and it's been documented. Bias has no place in any "civil service" position and should be cause for immediate termination. You don't have to like a thing about me, just do your job, keep your emotions and religious beliefs in check. I will do the same.
Monday really knocked me back, messed me up bad in so many ways, still is and I'm feeling worse than ever. And then there is the fact that I am so alone, I have no one, Parker was all I had, and despite the devastation of losing Sydney, with my Parker I could function, he kept the PTSD at bay, helped me get up when my back had me down, he danced with me, slept with me and his cat, and I had him to talk to. I could have laid down and died next to Syd, if not for that dog, The isolation became torcher when subhumans had him from me. I spent 10-11 months in a constant state of fight/flight (also documented by therapist, videos, neighbors, etc.) and had to get a dog, puppy to train (don't do if you're over 40, unless it's for therapeutic value), and still struggle. I do not want another person to go through what I have with Parker. I haven't named names yet, but it is ALL public record, so in due time . . . .
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06.10.22 I really don't know how I'm going to get this done without an army of people and a large space to put stuff in. The units I have really need to be organized and I cannot do it myself because of my physical limitations. I need the shelves from house to storage to do it. Thankfully we/they got a lot out, at least 1/3, and I need sooo much help, all kinds of help. If I had the money, I could have got the 1 drive in unit they happened to have at the storage place, it's large enough for a trailer, and it would make unloading easier. Then I'd consolidate and organize. But again, I cannot do it alone. I need money to hire/pay help. I'm still applying of jobs. Meanwhile, the bank can come in anytime from the 14th on. I really need a place to stay, with my dog. I'm going to have to put the cat Little Zelda down. Cody Cat is older, and I doubt he can take loosing Little Z, especially after he lost Parker; now I'm crying. This is so hard, and I am just freaked. Please share and reshare.
AA
06.10.22 Subhumans, they are everywhere . . .
People Got a Lot of Nerve
How does it elevate you to take advantage of others when they are experiencing crisis? Obviously, you have no trouble sleeping with or looking at yourself in the mirror. Does it provide some ultimate pleasure lacking in your life? Does it build some whack sort of confidence, or make you feel special in what must be a miserable tiny little life? Is your spouse/partner proud of you, if you have one? How about your children? Are you teaching them how to take advantage and get over on others when they need help the most? But God does forgive all for the asking right? True that.
I hate to be the one to inform you, God does indeed forgive all for the asking, no matter the retched deed however, Karma keeps a different type of tally.
Your fatal flaw is your faulty thinking, which really lacks depth and forethought, not to mention experience. And your narcissistic sense of entitlement, where that comes from is deep within your own head. No one in your life thinks of you the way you fancy yourself. Many people want nothing to do with you, as you are so much more transparent than you could imagine. A fragmented subhuman, too weak to be true to self, missing out on a fulfilled life, with repressed desires and tendencies that are impossible to completely repress, lacking the personal constitution to completely, or even in part, change your life, so you never move forward much less grow. Do you even know what is meant by personal constitution?
Let me give you a few pointers. First of all, before you fu@k with anyone, anyone at all, ask yourself, “Does this person have anything to lose”? I mean really loose, beyond the material or monetary that you are after. I hope I’m not using words too big for your comprehension. Hopefully you have a dictionary somewhere and can find it. Because if they have nothing to lose you are in for a beat down, not necessarily immediate, just know it is coming. You’ll be surprised, cry foul, blame them, play the victim, and want a pity party for yourself, but you will be exposed, to all, for now and forever. Know it.
Because you think so highly of yourself, and have for so long, you’ve come to believe that you are much smarter than you actually are. There’s that faulty thinking of yours at work. In reality, others outside of that sad close circle of yours, see right through you. They keep their distance, write you off, or watch you like a hawk if they must share space (which is infrequent if at all). It must suck to be you. No real control in or over your life, lacking personal awareness, living behind that mask you carry. It must get heavy, never being able to put it down.
Ashly
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Comcast Xfinity was fabulous. Best customer support ever! They’re giving me until May 24th to come up with phone payment, and they actually turned my Internet back! Need $1750 to reach 48 hour goal. PLEASE SHARE
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Homeless 05.29.22 Recent Widowed Targeted Hate
Senior Will be Homeless after May 29, 2022. Recently widowed, after 24+ years, completely alone, with no living children, no family, a petite 5', 95 lb. elder, lesbian-identified, woman was denied Spousal SSI Survivor Benefits, despite having an Avadavat of Domestic Partnership from 2009. These benefits would have covered her mortgage, allowing her to carry on the retirement plan the couple had in place and worked very hard not only set in motion, but to achieve. It only takes 1 far-right religious fanatic, evangelist hater, who's bias conflict with the job they are paid (by taxpayers) to do, to ruin lives. Still early on and trying to process the grief of losing her spouse/wife, she was targeted by the 1st of 2 "Karen" dog owners & the "Ken" who has been running Baltimore County Animal Services since 1987 (not a typo), resulting in the unjust removal of her Service Dog, Parker, for CPTSD/PTSD & ADHD, who is/was a very sweet big beloved boy. Parker was critical in her day-to-day functioning, and all she had left in this world. Removal of Parker caused her life to come to a screeching halt. The next 11-12 months were spent in a constant PTSD response of fight-or-flight, struggling and unable to complete even the simplest necessary day-to-day and life tasks.
This is an EMERGENCY GoFundMe Campaign!! PLEASE, SHARE
IMMEDIATE CRITICAL ISSUES
Money, NONE, Overdrawn Checking Account, Overdue Critical Bills
Lost Home to foreclosure, No Place to Go! Credit shot, no income (should have Spousal SSI Survivor Benefits, like every other widow),
Hunger, Seriously Underweight
Alone / No Family /No Help of Any Kind / Forced Solitude
EVERYTHING IS GOING BLACK, GETTING SHUT OFF!
Phone - could be off today
Internet - shut off 05.12.22 (spent hours trying to get a real person, but bless Comcast Xfinity, they turned it back on giving me until 05.22.22 to pay up
BGE - around the 12th
Insurance is due, Auto & health
Insurance is due, Auto & health
Website
Checking Account, overdrawn, need to keep a minimum balance for very important automatic payments, like insurance, STORAGE, etc.
Auto needs repairs to be completed. Ripped off by mechanics for approximately $2000, the $$$ that was to be used for moving out of the house, my car was held for ransom. I will be uploading a video about this recent event.
I have been stuck at the house, not enough gas in the car; and it could break down. If I leave the house I have to go straight to gas station.
Just lost our wedding rings and the last of the decent and important jewelry because I didn't have the loan payment.
Need a place to live for 6-10 months, but preference is to find a vehicle I can convert into a mobile tiny house (I have most of what I need to do the build out/conversion), and sell everything. This makes the most sense given my PTSD, and the fact that I haven't lived under someone else's roof since I was 17. That was with my cousin who through me out, after telling me my dad was dying from cancer, wouldn't let me rent one of the empty apartments she had, as she set the stage for her very underhanded plan. I was homeless, my car was damaged and in the shop after it was hit. My mode of transportation was my thumb or bus, I never knew where I was going to sleep (thankfully I could sneak into the rafters in the studio theatre at TSU a few nights a week & shower in the Dance Dept). This was also when I turned my first trick (they call them "dates" now a days), and my drug abuse escalated. Not to worry, my "recovery" of over 30 years is solid, thanks to a great and subsequent therapists, and has been tested in divine ways.
How my goal breaks down:
$2000 w/in 48 hours - keeps everything on
$4000 w/in 72 hours - movers, food, medical
$20,000 w/in 14 days (May 24) - temp housing
Total $30,000 w/in 45 days - Mobile Tiny Home
I have chronic physical health conditions, and a new recent injury, that has rendered my left arm useless, along with prior weight limitations to what I can lift.
I am trying to update my website with my story and personal possessions I have listed to sell.
I am trying to update my website with my story and personal possessions I have listed to sell.
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Ashly Alexander
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Baltimore, MD