On July 10 my world fell apart to an explosion

My name is Andrea and I was one of the residents in A building that caught fire. It was my birthday and I was spending it at the pool. I went home for an hr to love on my puppy, Mighty, my emotional support animal that has gotten me through a Lot of trauma the last 9 months. I left to go back to the pool like any other day. I told him “Be a good boy, baby. Mommy loves you. I’ll be back in a couple hours!” I was at the pool and about 10 mins later I heard an alarm. I didn’t think anything of it until I heard people yelling and rushing my apartment. I sprinted across the parking lot to find black smoke. Someone opened the door and I yelled for Mighty, but he did not come. I lost my baby. I burnt my hair, lashes, eyebrows and fingers. I could hear everyone yelling for me to leave but I kept trying. I couldn’t save him. My entire world fell apart within seconds.

Due to missing a deadline with new employment, I have no insurance and unable to have any until January. I ended up at the ED for smoke inhalation. It hurts to breathe. It burns. I lost everything. It took me a year to obtain what I had. I had every penny in that apartment and have nothing to my name, with a $10,000 credit card bill because I lost my job for several months.

I cannot receive mental health support, due to no insurance. I have nothing to pick up and start again.

The cause of the explosion is unknown but I’ve heard talk that my AC unit exploded. It has not been cooling like it should. I took it as it was the top floor and poorly insulated when it was set on 61 and wouldn’t get below 77 on hot days. A grill is talked about, a grill did NOT start this explosion. Yes, I had a table top CHARCOAL grill and a bag of charcoal on the balcony to keep dirty things outside. I had plans to take it to the pool in the evening and grill there. There was no gas involved.

Please help me pick up the pieces without my best friend. He was perfect in every way and I’ll never forgive myself for leaving him home instead of bringing him to the pool. The visualizations of him running around, panicking, trying to find me to help him out is haunting me.

I had nothing but my swimsuit. Nothing, NOTHING is salvageable. My car keys were inside. I can’t even move my car.

My family and a friend have been wonderful in collecting items for me but I truly think this will result in lots of therapy and bills that I can’t pay for, not to mention moving expenses and finding a new home.

My current sizes are:

Tops: XL

Bottoms: L or 12/14. (Some 12 is tight)

Underwear: 7

Bras cannot be found in stores and need ordered, 36 i. I order thru Amazon, Glamorize brand. Below is a link to what fits me.

https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B07BKJ6MQH/ref=ox_sc_act_image_1?smid=A31PYE2BX95T4P&psc=1