Help with financial difficulties

Hello all,

This is extremely hard for me to do! I hate asking people for any type of help. A number of people always ask and I decline. Everyone else has their "behind the scenes and smiles " situations going on. I hate to have this come across as a "Woah is me" moment. I'm not like that. As most of you may know if not all of you know I have been on this wild rollercoaster ride with layoffs. 8 to be exact. ( torture, I know, alot of people in the same situation). I have been in a struggle for quite sometime now and I am at risk to lose everything. Starting over is always scary, plus trying to calm the mental anguish of it all, has taken me down. I am at a breaking point. My mental health has been a real struggle to deal with. Unemployment has run out, and I am in a crunch now. I've been looking to transition out of my comfort zone industry. I need too. The instability is killing me mentally. My anxiety and depression is taking over and it's hard to stay afloat. My meds have run out and bills have piled up. My breakdowns are more than I can handle at the moment. I'll be raw and honest with you all, I've self harmed, I've had panic and anxiety attacks more than you know. Pulling yourself out of that monster grasp is the worst feeling ever. You think you'll die, you think all the worst. Add the depression on top of the anxiety your brain is constantly fighting a very dark battle. Med trials have led to severe headaches, one of the worst cases of hives I've ever had and just the feeling of having to take something where side effects override the benefits is mental anguish in itself. I try to educate on some mental health issues its hard to know what to educate people on when you're still trying to figure it out yourself.( and it's been well over 10 years)

At this point I'm at a loss. Im going to have to give up my lease on my vechile, the house at this point is in pre-forclosure and there are some bills due to the mental health that's lying aside because the treatment and sessions are extremely expensive. I pray to have a little help here. I hate asking for anything. I just feel foolish asking. Losing my house( my pride and joy) because I put alot into that is throwing me over to this emotional state that I do not wish on anyone. I did it on my own and actually felt proud. Please, if you are struggling with mental health reach out to a professional. Cutting doesn't solve anything. It's just a way your brain thinks it's the only way for relief. IT'S NOT. I love each and everyone of you and when I can ever repay you, I will gladly do so.♡

** MAY IS MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS MONTH** If you're feeling lost, please get help. Far too many people don't. The stigma around this illness deters many people, and it SHOULD NOT be that way!!