Pain Crisis- Sickle Cell Anemia

Just a while ago I looked like this, and rn am feeling and looking my worst. I miss being healthy and hate being sick. Since I turned 8, I found out that I had Sickle Cell. Since then I’ve been relatively ill, but as soon as college started and my levels of stress increased I’ve been In a constant cycle of suffering. My family, friends and I are always praying for my health which makes me happy. I know I’m not the only one suffering but my physical health has greatly affected my mental health. Sometimes I feel like I can’t do this anymore. I’m never able to finish the semester at school on time and have even taken a medical leave. I’ve started multiple medications including a chemotherapy drug. I’m fighting very hard but sometimes I get tired. I’m in medical debt, some school debt and etc. I hate to bother people around me and I feel like a burden. Unfortunately, I have to take one more semester off because COVID-19 currently has a big impact on my ability to return this fall therefore I’m taking another semester of for financial reasons. Not only does that make things financially straining but emotionally exhausting. My time at Vassar with people I love has been a journey I’ve hated. I fall out of friendships easily because my lack of effort due to being sick. I love to engage with people but the symptoms and side effects of medications I take have made things harder. Although I’ve « graduated »I don’t officially finish my matriculation until the end of Spring 2021. Therefore, I need financial assistance for medications, storage, unemployment. At vassar I try to make the most of my interactions but I fail to continue them due to embarrassment and the feeling of being a burden. I love those who’ve cared for and who have tried to be there for. I do need money and hope if you’re capable that you can donate some $$ because I am currently in the hospital and have a copay of $300 per admission. If you’re someone from church, please pray or do what you can and don’t gossip about me. Also thank you to Joss 320, VXF, KODC, BFM, ASU, VHP, and every member of Friendly Friends friend who have always thought* about me.