Paula Yvonne Meraz Memorial

My Momma, Paula Yvonne Meraz passed away on Sun Aug 4, 2024. The weeks prior she was not feeling well. She became dehydrated, barely eating or drinking and was nauseous and sleeping a lot and could barely walk. We had an ambulance come get her Sun July 28, 2024. During the course of the week, they determined she was in fact dehydrated, had a uti, and had some pneumonia on one lung and they did further testing and she had cancer. She was getting antibiotics and started on iv fluids to get her strength up upon arrival. But once she knew cancer was found, she didn’t want treatment. They needed to do a bone marrow biopsy, but she said she was done, she was tired and she wanted to go home. She was in too much pain and had been dealing with chronic pain for years. She said to us “I wanna go home” with tears in her eyes, it broke my heart! Mom has only cried a few times in front of me in her entire life! So for her to show that much emotion with her eyes that way, I knew we had to give her whatever she wanted! Even though she originally said she wanted to fight and live, once she got that cancer diagnosis and she was already so tired, so drained, so done with drs and being poked and prodded! We didn’t want to let her go, but we gave her her last wish, to just make her comfortable. We attempted to have her home for hospice, but her heart rate was too elevated for the trip. We told her she was unfortunately going to have to stay there. My brother Robert stayed 2 nights with her as she was now in comfort care. It was so good to see her not grimacing in pain! The last time she was still aware and able to either nod or gently say “yes” was Friday night. I told her I love her and she said it back. Mom and I had some difficulties most of our lives as mother/daughter. The tension was usually always mutual. Like we both wanted a good relationship, we didn’t know how to have one! We loved each other, but it wasn’t meant for us to be close. As I was with her yesterday after she passed, I leaned over her and said “Mom, we may not have got to where we wanted to be, but I want you to know I love you, I’ve always loved you! And don’t worry about Auggie or Robert. They will be fine, I promise! And I’ll make sure you have a very beautiful service!”

Mom didn’t have any plans in place, so we’re asking for

donations for cremation costs and the memorial service. Once we have the info, I will update. Thank you and if you can’t help, please share the link! Love and blessings to you all!!

Erika