Help Save Phara's

I've fallen on a very bad time. It's very hard for me to ask for help.
If you knew me you would understand how hard and embarrassing
this is.  I'm the type who acts like all is ok when it isn't. I've reached a
point that I have nowhere to turn but to just ask. I work so hard at
my business, I love my business, my customers, etc. From November
2017 thru the second week of March 2018 the weather here has
killed business for me.  I have an outdoor back courtyard that seats
almost 400 but when the weather is bad no one comes out. I have 
indoor seating but it seems people only want to sit in the outside
area and therefore when the weather is bad I lose business. I've been
opened for 10 years and in the 10 years of being opened this has been
the worst regarding weather. New Years Eve is my night to make up
for slow times . I had many reservations but due to snow I ended
up with cancellations that did me in for New Years Eve. I've been
trying so hard to do catch up. I tried getting a loan but unfortunately
I was turned down due to being overextended, with more going out
than coming in.  Customers or no customers I have to pay staff,
pay utilities, pay rent and it's all caught up with me, plus I have my
own expenses that have nothing to do with the restaurant. All I have
is the restaurant for income and I do get a Survivors Benefit from the
loss of my husband. When my husband was alive I never had to worry
about household expenses, mortgage, utilities, etc. because my
husband had his income to take care of all that.  I don't want to lose
my business, or my home. I've worked so hard to keep the business going and find myself needing financial assistance to keep my business and household going.  If there is anyone out there who
can understand  my situation and can help me it would be so appreciated and in all honesty I will do everything I can to pay them
back. I'm so embarrassed but I have to swallow my pride and ask for
help at this time . 
Customers always say please stay here for us, we love
your place and I'm trying to stay here for all of you.
Any funds I get will be used to catch up on bills from the
last few months. My customers will always be special to
me no matter what and  I will forever be indebted to all
of you.