Phil Gleason's cremation and Beachside Memorial

On January 19th my dad Phil Gleason ended his life. As many of you know my dad had struggling for the past year and a half or so but the last 4 months he got off the streets and was trying to get his mental health and life back on track. But the last few weeks of my Dad's life he was in in a mental hospital for a few days and released and then back and forth from the hospital is here and reaching out to his psychiatrist and case worker for help and he reached out to me for help as well. My dad never stated he felt like he was going into his life without suicidal but looking back there was little things signs, that I didn't even realize at the time. He was dismissed and brushed off by medical professionals that are supposed to help I recognize the signs but even as his daughter I missed them. The guilt I have and the pain hurt and anger is overwhelming at times. What led my dad to those tracks on the 19th I don't know if I'll ever know or fully understand. But I know for my dad for that man to even think of doing something like that, he must have been suffering deeply. Never in a million years that I think that my dad what commit suicide. It's been very hard for me and my kids as well as a lot of others. I just can't grasp or come to terms with the fact that my dad ended his life. Why why.. this GoFundMe was set up and has paid for my dad's cremation so far and I received his ashes on Saturday the 3rd. The money is now going to pay for his Beachside Memorial and I'm making keepsakes and purchasing t-shirts for those who attend if there's any money left it will be donated to a good cause that has something to do with Outreach for the homeless and or mental health and suicide awareness. I refuse to let my dad's death be in vain in the sense and not have anything positive come from it so I want to bring awareness and help in any way I can. That is what my dad would have done. Thank you all for your help, love, support, understanding and patience. Hopefully I will have a date set for his memorial by the end of this week so I will keep everyone updated. If anyone has any videos or pictures of my dad if you could please email them to me or message me on Facebook I would truly appreciate it. Continued prayers for me and my family are appreciated and needed

R.I.P. Dad

I took down what I had previously wrote just because I feel like right now it's best if I don't share a lot or everything I'm feeling. Grief is very personal and I didn't need all the outside noise because I already feel like I'm drowning in grief. I truly appreciate everyone and their support and love and help. I'm still not sure about my dad's memorial but I do believe I will be having something at the beach as my kids want and I know my dad would have liked that. It's going to be a while though because right now my kids are still trying to process this as am I and we just need time. But I will keep everyone updated and informed and continued prayers are needed and appreciated. My dad was a great man despite his struggles. He was the best dad, Grandpa, friend and man I've ever known.