Phoenix Reborn FTM Transgender Top Surgery

I am a 39 year old transman I will be 40 this year.
I was voicing from age 3 that I was in fact a boy at the age of 16 I was voicing this to medical professionals amd being ignored time and time again.
This led me into a life of pain self harming eating disorders I tried to emd my life at age 20 and still was ignored. I ended up in destructive relashioships time and time again because I believed I was nothing.
I tried so hard to not be my true authentic self that I felt so detached from my body I would wear masks of whom I was.
I had no self love whatsoever. I been under the care of mental health team for a long time and had vouced this quite frequently but I got diagnosed with other mental health disorders which I believe now are the result of not getting help at early stage of ny life.
I finally had a Dr listen too me last year and referd me to gic clinc.
Too my shock and horror It came to my attention that I could be waiting anouther 4 years before I get seen for my first apointment maybe longer now due to covid lockdown.
I was not prepared to wait 4-6 years before I get hormomes so I went searching for private care and that has been extremely costly but worth every penny!!.  
My g.p is as of next month bridging my hormomes and is doing my bloods butI still have to report in with my private care provider for monerting.
I have also been in touch with Dr Miles Berry and have had my consult with him for top surgery and been given a date 29th september this years. The opperation alone will cost £8903 that does not include my pre opp or post opp or 6 weeks post opp apointment s I will need either. 
I have managed to save £3200 so far most of that is Through saling stuff I dont need or want from around the house on ebay or gumtree and facebook market place.
I am trying to cut costs in my life and have not had a car on the road scince Febuary to try save money.
I have set up this go fund me page in the hope I could raise funds towards the surgery. 
Having this top surgery will improve the quality of my life endlessly I will be able to express my gender even more so. I wont have to binde my chest everyday and I be able to go swimming and sunbathe next year without covering up. I be able to wear vest tops and cut of sleeves without worrying someone is going to see my binder.
Even when I binde there still alot there because my chest is larger that makes me feel depressed in itself but its better than having them not binded. Having top surgey will be the best thing for my life moving faward. They say life begins at 40 so this is mine. Finally not in the fear and standing up being whom I am. If you can help in anyway with donations or sharing this around that would be very much appreciated. Many thanks for taking time to read this bio. Love xx
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