Please help me get out of this long dark tunnel

hello my name is Chris, im 34 years old, born and raised in Wasilla, Alaska. I am homeless living in my 1995 f150 truck, again for the fourth time since 18. Every time i have a good streak, a time where i can breathe and see my friends with asking them to pay for something, it gets taken away. I don't have good credit, and can’t fix it because i need everything of a check i get to survive, food, hygiene, gas, living expenses get to be to much. That being said, my child support is not to nice. I dont get to see my daughter(s), or even talk to the one i am paying for. I don't drink, i don't do drugs, i even quit nicotine, and i still cannot afford to make it. Legal fees and court orders are weighing me down, they tried to put me down for good but i won’t allow it. I have been accused wrongly and the ones who did that went and fixed those wrong doings but the government has its will and its way and it does not care for fixing those wrongdoings, they still see it wrong. I have been strong, however, losing my optimism, and am now here asking for you, the people of this big blue planet for help. I dont know what else to do, i work and work, and i cant figure out how to get more than scraps. When strawberry preserves are to expensive and crunchy peanut butter is all u can afford to slather on some 2.59 loaf of wheat, it can get pretty dark, and scary pretty quickly. 

Update…on the 1995 ford f150. The shifter stick, or steering column mechanism is not allowing me to turn over the motor. I got it started but now im afraid to turn it off and be stranded…i just dont understand what it is with me or how i am always getting stuck in life. I dont understand it. Bad luck literally surrounds me. Uhm again thank you everyone around the world, i cannot imagine what would be happening if i didnt have all of u.

These funds will go towards my next living quarters. And now towards fixing my truck. Because apparently she only wants to start on her terms. I still love her and dont want to get rid of her, she hasnt done me wrong until well i dont consider this wrong she just needs some TLC. 

So i dont know how to ask for help, but i am here, gratefully, breathing, hoping that i will be able to enjoy my favorite sandwich, or go out to see people without being judged for being so skinny, i need help, anything and i am grateful for your care and support and kindness. 

gosh i wish could give everyone a great big hug. I very much appreciate you for ur donations. Yall are keeping my spirits high, and my optimism along with it. Much love to you ladies and gentlemen.

Thank you

sincerely, Chris Vanni