Changing my life

Some of you may know and some of you may not. The restaurant that Orlando and I were running closed leaving me and him without any income coming into our household. Orlando was able to bounce back and find a job pretty quickly.

I unfortunately wasn't as resilient. I went through what I consider a mental break down. I have been struggling with a life long relationship with alcohol. I decided in that moment I could no longer continue to live that way anymore. I had to put my ego aside and realize I had a serious disease that needed immediate attention. I admitted my self into a detox facility the next day. I spent a week in detox. I had no clue the damage I had been putting my body through. The withdraws were incredibly painful but I didn't give up. I had my beautiful children in the front of my mind at all times.

I realized detox wasn't going to be enough to fight this disease, so I committed to a 30 day treatment center. With the help of some of my family I was able to make it to Sundown M Ranch in Yakima. This place literally saved my life. I gradated the program on 3-12-2024. I know that I must continue to fight this awful disease everyday for the rest of my life and that this is just the beginning of the healing. I have more treatment lined up to continue on this path. I am also attending AA meetings daily. I never want to go back to the miserable life I was living. My kids deserve so much more than that. I deserve so much more than that. I know this journey will not be easy but it will never compare to the days when I was so far gone in this disease I didn't even want to wake up.

Unemployment has denied my weekly claims stating that I must be physically able to work. They denied me because I was in a treatment facility. I tried to get disability and they denied me saying I need to file for unemployment. I have been getting nothing but the run around. I have applied for a plethora of jobs but I have only been out of treatment for a couple days now. Fingers crossed I land something. I have reached out to all the recourse's I could possibly find, but we don't reach the criteria to be approved...... Yet. I don't want it to get to the point where we are at, YET. Bills are piling up. Orlando is making ok money but not comparable to what he was making. Its the catch up game we are playing now. We are on the verge of loosing our apartment and the phone is non stopping ringing with calls to collect money for our bills. I am at a lost. I have always been very independent and have been able to take care of myself and my family.

I must humble myself now. My sobriety is my main priority and I need to continue down this path of change. So with that I am asking for help. This has always been something that has been very hard for me, but I am putting my pride aside and asking you, my friends and family, if you can help me reach my goal even if its a $1. Any help would be appreciated more than I could ever express. And if you can't help financially I could really use words of encouragement. I am at a pivotal point in my life, but I am so glad my eyes were opened up and I don't have to suffer anymore.

Thank you in advance for any help we may receive. Thank you for taking the time to read my story. And thank you for always being by my side.

*We are also willing to borrow money and pay it back in increments as we get established with a job.