Help Me to Find Hope

I am asking, and believe me this is the first time I have ever been able to humble myself to ask for help in this way, for money if you can spare a dollar or two. I do not want to bore you with the long details of how I have ended up in my position, but it is because I made a bad choice in not only a doctor (who misdiagnosed me and told me I had Lupus and that was not funtime at all.)  I now have an excellent doctor, who is finding some issues, but that come with with hospital bills ( a recent stay), but health is coming along. I also believed in another person I trusted to never throw me out onto the curb, almostly literally. I am without money, but currently have a place to lie my head for the time being and for that I am grateful.  I have been ill (getting better with my new doctor) but am severely saddened by my situation and finding it harder to hang on. While I think I may have help with my surgical bills (payments), I do not have a job currently and my car is in need of a repair. It keeps misfiring and while I have had it checked, I do not have the funds to fix it, smog it, and register it.

I am asking for the amount I believe it would take t fix my car plus some living expenses until I find a job...basically to live. I am barely holding on here.The job market is bad in California yet I had to pass on an interview. because of the car issue. (no, we do not have a bussing system that takes me from where I am to where I needed to go.) If I can at least fix my car I can have options to pursue those limited jobs or even relocate to a place that has more to offer. I am just searching for help? Can you help?

I am sure there are prettier told stories on here and way more worthy stories than mine. I am sure that I could have painted an even more pathetic story (myself being pathetic I feel)....and most of it would be so freaking true it makes my heart hurt because I feel pathetic just going this route. I just ask, if you FEEL it in your heart to give, I promise someday it will be given back in return. I have been told by my daughter that she knew someone who bought herself a shiny new laptop using this place. I never heard of it until it was mentioned to me. I hope the next time I use it, it is to contribute.