Skye and Joshua's Emergency Fund

As some of you may remember, I tweeted a google doc in January about Skye's ongoing struggle with her physical and mental health, the huge issues we ran into with our living situation, and the insane stalking and abuse she had been on the receiving end of (among other things), all piling up and making everything even worse than it already had been.

Here's a link to that document.

Unfortunately, most of these things- especially the health problems and the stalker situation- have only gotten worse over the months since I made that post.

The stalking and abuse has become more aggressively vitriolic and frequent, with this person now directly harassing both me and some of our other friends, continuing to make threats aimed at both Skye and her parents, even threatening to come here in person or send others in their stead.

This in turn continues to add both mental and literal physical stress/tension on Skye, causing her already declining health to worsen. Just in the past three months I've lost count of how many times I've had to take her to the hospital/ER with cardiovascular emergencies and procedures, complications from POTS, tooth decay/periodontal disease, and severe neurodegenerative symptoms- on one occasion having to be taken in an ambulance with stroke-like symptoms, which happened less than two days after I was in an awful freak car accident where one of the wheels somehow just... came off of the car. The car had no prior issues and we had recently passed inspection. I've been told the only way this could've happened is if the lug nuts had either been put on way too tight- which would have caused us to hear and feel something wrong over time before they'd finally snapped (we didn't)- OR someone had to have intentionally loosened them in the night before I came outside and started driving. Even if it was just some kind of crazy accident, given the constant threats, we haven't felt safe in our own home in a very long time.

Then, last Sunday, under intense stress, alone, and unable to see any viable way out, Skye tried to commit suicide.

I don't know how much detail I can or should get into here.

It was terrifying.

We barely got her into the ER in time, they wouldn't let me or anyone else see her, and they either couldn't or wouldn't even tell us whether or not she was going to make it for nearly 8 hours. In the initial chaos of trying to get her down to the car and speed to the hospital, her glasses had been left behind. They wouldn't let me give her her glasses, or take her glasses from me so that they could give them to her.

She was still alone, scared, barely conscious, and with the added bonus of not being able to see anything that was happening around her.

I was sick to my stomach and not sure I'd ever felt time move as slowly as it did while we waited to hear anything from the nurses. I can't imagine what it was like for her in those hours.

She's back home now, but obviously hasn't been doing great. We have several appointments lined up in the coming weeks with various doctors, specialists, and therapists, and she needs to have either me or one of our friends nearby ideally as long as she's awake, if not 24/7.

With the combination of everything she and I have been hit with over the course of the last... almost two years now(!?), (and none of this has even touched on the handful of things I've personally been hit with myself- like my former boss not paying overtime and refusing to give me my last paycheck, the increasingly-painful herniated disc in my back, or my parents' attempt to "reconnect" with me and offer to help me move, only to have a huge literally-last-minute transphobic outburst and leave Skye and I to instead move all of my belongings in multiple 1200-mile trips in my car, among other shit), saying that everything has been horribly rough is once again a massive understatement.

I'm setting the goal of this gofundme at $7000. We're at a point where we need a hell of a lot more than that to get out of this pit, but honestly I feel awful asking for anything at all (7000 feels completely unfathomable to me right now in the state we're in), and I know that this should be enough to at least help get us over some of the more immediately pressing hurdles:

I know there's more but I've been working on figuring out how to write all of this out for several hours and it is now 3am and I can't think of anything else.

We are both so tired. Please help.

I get severe anxiety over ever asking for assistance of any kind and I know Skye would prefer to take the "fake it til' you make it" approach but everything has been really, really bad and it feels like the walls are all closing in and I don't know what else we can do at this point.

Anything anyone can spare helps, and if you can't, just sharing this gofundme around helps a lot too.

I'm not sure what else to say here.

Thank you in advance to anyone who is able to donate.

I'll do my best to keep everyone updated here and on my twitter account.