Support for Hudson James' Grieving Parents

07/15/2024 at 8:50 AM 

Hudson was laid to rest at our home, it was one of the hardest days of my life. We had a small service for him, just us and our parents. We each shoveled dirt in his grave one step at a time. He is buried under our elm tree, the first thing that Dylan and I fell in love with at our property. It’s an old tree, shaded, and just the most serene spot for Hudson. Dylan’s parents were gracious enough to purchase the fence around his grave. Dylan’s dad built the cross that rests at Hudson’s head. My parents have donated money so we can order a headstone and some artificial grass to go over Hudson’s grave. We want it to be perfect year round because that’s exactly what Hudson was, perfect. Please continue to pray for peace and healing for us. It is extremely difficult going through postpartum healing when I don’t have a baby in my arms to hold. 

07/13/2024 at 4:35 AM 

Today is the day, the day that I dread the most. Hudson spent the night with his Mema and Papa Benson, and will be laid to rest here at our home this morning. Burying our beautiful baby boy weighs so heavy on my chest. It is a pain no parent should ever have to go through. Please pray for us today as we are hurting. Today will be hard for us, but knowing our baby is finally home makes me have some peace. 

07/11/2024 at 3:52 AM

This is not something I ever imagined I would do, much less go through.

Dylan and I have been together almost 20 years, and have been married for 14. We lost a baby in 2014 through a miscarriage so when we find out we were pregnant this year (2024) we knew it was a miracle.

Our pregnancy was perfect, textbook in every way until our world shattered just a few days ago. I went to the OB doctor for some pressure, thinking it was an UTI upon a pelvic exam we discovered that my cervix had dropped, the bag around our baby had been exposed, and a miracle was needed.

We were rushed to UNC Chapel Hill where we discovered that due to my dilation and the location of the bag outside the cervix, our only option was to attempt a procedure called a cerclage, which wasn’t a guarantee. We decided to sleep on that decision, but at 3 am on July 9th my water broke.

I was induced, and just before noon delivered our beautiful baby boy Hudson James who was born asleep. The mental toll that we experienced knowing we were going to deliver and our child was too young to survive, is truly something I don’t know we will overcome.

With my delivery being so premature, my company will not honor FMLA as I have not been there a year (just a month shy). In addition, my company does not do paid maternity leave, so anytime that I have for recovery is at no pay. I’m not sure how long my physical recovery will be, and I can’t imagine my mental state either. Any donation that is received will go towards bills as I did help pay for a significant amount while working. I want to lessen the financial burden for my husband who is already so heartbroken over the loss of our son.

If you cannot financially donate, please more than anything pray. Pray for peace, strength, comfort, and calmness for my husband and I as we navigate this life without our miracle baby boy.

We will be burying him here at home over the weekend, but those expenses are taken care of. Please keep us in your thoughts. This is the worst pain we have ever had to experience.