Support Shayla's Journey to Stability and Education

I never thought I would be here today making a GoFundMe, but here I am. I am a huge giver. I love giving what I can to the people I love, even people I don't know. I hate being in situations where I have to ask other people for help because I'm usually going to be disappointed when nobody can or when nobody wants to. My name is Shayla Anderson, and I'm 18 years old, and this is me asking for help.

I didn't realize how important mental health was until mine went on the decline. In January, I'm supposed to be starting my second semester of college, but I'm not even sure I can do that right now. I spent my first semester at Carroll University, and I hated it. It cost so much money to be there, and I wasn't passionate about learning there, and I didn't thrive in that environment. So I made the decision to leave. Here I am at "home" struggling with what to do with my life. I quoted home because this isn't my home. It's my own personal hell. Even during the smallest of breaks when I can't be on campus, I have to "come home." I dread coming home because it always causes issues between me and my mother. We argue, and she threatens to kick me out, and she tells me not to ask her for help, and she calls me names and makes fun of my appearance. It's hard to put up with this when you really don't have anywhere to go. Every break, I try to put up with it because I don't have anywhere to go. All of my stuff is here, and I have no family here. When I'm on campus, my stuff gets thrown around all over the place, my dog is treated like crap, and I'm expected to have my whole life together.

So my mental health is already bad with having identity crises and figuring out what I want to do with my life, but on top of that, I have a mother threatening me, no job, no idea if I can even afford to send myself to college, where to go to continue my studies, and little to none of a support system. I try to save money when I can, but when I had an on-campus job, I was making just enough money to pay tuition and my phone bill. I knew that I wanted my own apartment so I can raise my pet and live by my own rules and support myself because I have no one to help me. However, that's impossible when I have a mother who doesn't want me and a father who's too far away to "help" me. I'm trying to do everything I can to survive on the daily.

They say that money is the root of all evil, but who is even saying that? Probably people who are so rich that they don’t even know what to spend it on anymore, but I say money is the answer to everything. If I had money, I could be in my own apartment right now, with my dog, a car, and a college degree. I'm trying to make a plan to get a car, a house, and a college degree, but I can't even drive, so how am I going to learn? I have nobody to help me. I'm poor with no money in my savings and $0 in my checking account. I'm at home struggling and fighting with my only family. I'm at "home," and I quote this again because this isn’t where I’m supposed to be. I’m 18, and I expected to have my whole life planned in front of me. Money is the answer to everything personally because then I can have a better life. My ideal life is at my real home, with my partner, and my dog Kobe, with a car to take me to my good-paying job, and a place where I make the rules. Only me! Nobody knows how broken down I am because nobody expects me to be. I feel like I’m on life support fighting to survive in a world that doesn’t want me. The only peace I receive is when I sleep, so when I sleep, I don't want people to bother me because I'm struggling, and now I'm asking for help.

I got into the most physical altercation with my mom, and that's never happened before. I don't want to fight my mother, but she keeps fighting me, mentally and physically. I'm so embarrassed to even be asking for help right now, but please help me, and please save me from where I'm not supposed to be.

Please help me get away and find my own place so I can figure out my life. If you can’t donate please share to people. I know everybody is going through their own things but anything can help me.