Help Heal Paul

Hello everyone,

I’m sorry I haven’t given any updates in awhile, but it’s been a rough few years. As most of you already know, in 2018 I was diagnosed with brain cancer, a brain stem glioma to be specific. One doctor told me I could have as little as 6 months to live. The doctors gave me one round of radiation almost right away and two rounds of chemotherapy that finished around July 2019. Since then, mostly every few months, at every MRI scan, they said that my tumor hadn’t grown or spread. With that being the case, they said they wouldn’t do anymore treatments of any kind until it got bigger or began to spread. It didn’t matter how many times or in what way I asked for treatment. Talking about chemotherapy, one doctor even said, “It will not make it smaller.”  Repeatedly, their words were not “if,” but “when” it got worse. They had no hope for me. Time and again I was told to just go home, get my affairs in order, and essentially, wait to die. This happened at literally every visit.

   Then 2020 came and it was a horrible year for everyone. Devastating for many and my heart truly goes out to all the families affected. Knowing that I was at a higher risk of having serious problems because of having cancer, is what really got me started down the rabbit hole of health and how the human body actually works. Since then I’ve read several books, watched hundreds of hours of videos and spoken to many people to learn and share as much as possible.

   I changed my diet and lifestyle to be as healthy and holistic as possible. Without a doubt, all this helped me to be healthier and survive this long. I’ve learned some absolutely incredible things about human physiology that were never taught to us in school. I’ve joined a few online groups to learn about new things that I would then go research, share what I had learned and even helped others.

   I’d rather not go into specifics until after this is all behind me, but a few months ago I found something that really works, it’s 100% safe, for the first time I’ve finally felt relief in my brain, though it was temporary, and of course no insurance exists that will cover it. I was only able to do this for a couple weeks until I ran out of money and had to stop. I started back up a little over a month ago, I was able to get through one month only with the help of payday loans. Which only hurt the following month when I had to pay them back, which was this month. 

   I'm on social security/disability, which of course doesn’t go far, especially after Medicare is taken out. With the tumor causing speech, balance, and vision issues, I’m not able to commit to any job. My eyes are no longer able to work together to focus on anything, which doesn’t help my balance issues and is also why I now have to wear the eye patch all day. Without the patch or closing one eye, nearly everything is next to impossible. Thankfully my vision in each individual eye is still ok, so with the patch on I am finally able to read, look at a screen and drive short distances. Really just to the grocery store and take my dad to his doctor’s appointments. I was doing food delivery with apps like DoorDash very part time, but my double vision made that impossible to continue. My balance has also seemed to get worse and my slurred speech is hit or miss. I’m trying to start data entry type jobs online, but so far, reputable sites and gig-type jobs are hard to find, often pay less than minimum wage and I can still only have the energy and focus for a couple hours at a time at best. They are also proving to be slow getting started since I’ll likely have to do several different sites to add up to an income, even part-time, but I’m not giving up on this.

   This new therapy costs me over $1000 a month with everything. I might only need another 2-4 more months, or it might take 6-12 months and probably longer until I’m permanently healed and can finally close this chapter of my life for good. I really won’t know until I get there. With how bad of shape my body is in, I won’t be surprised when I’m on the longer end of the time frame. I thought I would be able to continue doing deliveries, but I can’t, I’ve tried. I also thought I could get more payday loans to keep this going, but the amounts offered keep getting lower. Even if they weren't, they're not sustainable.    

   I never wanted to do this again, but now I’m asking for help. Whatever my outcome is, this will be my last request for anything like this. My oldest son, Jack, is graduating from high school this Sunday. For the younger ones, Charlie, Logan and Layla, I’m still going through the divorce and custody case where I want to and am trying to be a part of their lives again so I can be the father they deserve. My kids are all amazing humans and they are the reason I keep going everyday. I want to heal my brain for them and be on this earth a long time for them and my future grandchildren. Whether I get to see them or not, I hope they can feel how much I love them all.

   I’m sorry this ended up being longer than I had hoped, but thank you so much for reading this. If you’re able to help at all with any sized donation, we would be forever grateful. Whether you can or not, a prayer, positive vibe or a share to your personal page or a group page would also be much appreciated. You can use a card on GoFundMe, or send to me directly via PayPal or Zelle.

   Thank you again and I wish each of you and your families nothing but the very best.