The Vanessa Bennett sole survivor

My. Name is Vanessa Bennett and im the sole survivor of a triple homicide in Aurora, Colorado. My parents and sister were murdered in 1984 on January 16th. A serial killer named Alex Christopher Ewing not only brutally attacked me and killed my family, but has killed and attacked many families since. am an ex drug addict because all of the trauma I went through with being attacked by a hammer. I've struggled with relationships, the law, homelessness and family. i've lost my children. I hate the person I used to be but am now trying to take accountability for what I did. I hope you can understand the struggling that I dealt with as a child having been raped and beaten with a hammer and having my jaw wired and dealing with confusion, and people taking advantage me. Also, hating myself and not . i want to move but cant affored a deposit or a uhaul.understanding why I looked the way I looked or acted the way I did. My jaw was shattered and wired together and a have a metal plate in my forehead. But the reason I am asking for help is because I was receiving 1300.00 a month but then out of nowhere they cut one of my checks off and now only receive 636.00 a month. I cant make rent money and the landlord wont fix anything around the house and makes me do the physical work and wont pay me for it. My front door was broken into and the walls around the door are crumbling around to where you can see outside and she wont fix it. I have family that helps with stuff but it doesn't help with the problems I've had to deal with.i a German Shepard that needs to get neutered and costs 16p.00 and one of my senior cats is in so much pain i think its time we send her over the rainbow bridge and that costs 65.00. I went to push my window open and the whole frame came out of the wall. Nobody will help me fix it. My landlord said i need to pay for it. It needs to be spackled ba ck to the wall and screwed in but my hands are disabled.i dont know what to do.